Love, or Pride?

Move on

2006-06-14T19:15:00.000+08:00

I supported them four years ago.And 4 years later,i'm still loyal.
Remembered i was crazy over Japan and Hidetoshi Nakata four years ago during the FIFA World Cup 2002.
I still am this year.
You know you support the team when you feel nervous for them at every match.
Your heart pounds fast, you cheer for them.
Funny why I'll support Japan,they don't play very well,they don't look very good too(whether this is a reasonable factor or not).
I have no idea why too,but i just do.
Perhaps they are asians?Hoping that they can do asians proud?
Bet you people are thinking i should put the hope on Korea yeah?
But still i say,NIPPON...GAMBATTE.

But this year,things aren't going well,Japan is in Group F,strong group i can say with the 5-time FIFA world cup winner Brazil.But it's not like i'm expecting Japan to win the world cup,seeing them getting through each round,seeing them improve is enough.

Japan v.s. Australia on 12Jun06.
Didn't catch the first half of the game,and after the half-time,i saw the score 1-0.
How happy i was.
Cheering,hoping they could keep it this way.
They had to win Australia,the easiest to beat among the 3 in the group.
But after the whole match,I sat there staring into space.
Disappointed.
Imagine the team you're supporting was leading all the way,until the opponent team scored 3 goals in the last 10 mins.(7mins u would say)
Devastating.
I simply don't feel like watching world cup anymore.
Frustrations and disappointments.
Keep getting reminded bout the 1-3 score.
Japan was tired in the 2nd half of the game. The match gets so bored when both teams seem to be dreaming away.
Australia only woke up and fire up after Tim Cahill scored their first goal.
People say all thanks to Hiddink for he "cleverly" sent in the two substitutes who scored the 3 goals.
But i doubt it..was he that "clever"?

The Socceroos were cheering,the Blue Samurais were frowning.
I blame the groupings,blame Hiddink,blame the Socceroos,blame Zico,blame the Blue Samarais for i really think they could have done better.
But what's the use of all that..
The fact is,Japan lost.(Perhaps you think it's better this way than Japan winning with a controversial goal)
But i won't lose hope.
They are not giving up,and i'm not giving up too.

Because i miss these smiles...miss this teamwork.

It's no longer a matter of win or lose.
They just have to perform well in the matches.

I'll continue to support them...

...and move on with them. =)

NIPPON...NIPPON...
NIPPON...NIPPON...

Next up..
Japan v.s. Croatia 18Jun06 9pm
Japan v.s. Brazil 22Jun06 3am

The New Place

2006-06-08T15:38:00.000+08:00

Any idea how long had my blog been rotting?Perhaps it's time to blog something less people think i've gone missing or something.
The common tests are over.Well,i was quite glad to know i only had to do 2 tests,but does it make a difference at all?We've got more to study,more to memorise even though there's only 2 tests.
But at least,I can rest for a while now,before we people gotta rush our projects again.

Poly is slack?
If you're in BMS,you know this is so so so not true.
Because we've got lots of projects to do,we had 5 at one go,cleared some,and there's 5 again.
Thought next semester i could rest,'cos there'll only be 2 projects,but guess what,4 modules that can be tested will be waiting for us.
And imagine those 3 hours lab sessions,yes,interesting,but it's gonna be disastrous on days when we get clumsy and spill reagents all over the table or break the test tubes.
So how can we slack?
Sometimes i do envy the people in courses not under Life Sciences.
Because their life seems so much easier.
Same campus,but why so different?
Haha,but i'm quite used to it already.
At least we do remember to find time to slack.Watch youtube with the laptop, take pictures and all sorts of things during lectures.
We must learn to slack at times,or the rubber band will snap,won't it?
Slack abit,nobody cares. Tired of lesson?Just tap the card and leave.

Afterall i think this new place is great.Other than the part where we have to climb "hills",tolerate the lousy chairs and tables in some lecture theatres,overall it's not bad.
Just consider the interesting people around.The cool friends i've made. The really smart people,who makes me lose hope of going to university.
And not forgetting,the "weird" people around.I've never seen so many different types of people,weird in their own ways.Want me to give some examples?Erm..nope.Less it's offensive and it'll hurt some people.Hehe.
We've become all the mean people,always there to laugh at others.
But in any ways,they make life interesting in this place.=D

Finally tests are over,break is here.It seems like time passes really fast.
But i finally have time to go shopping, and another important thing...TVB HK serial.
I won't forget to rent Lam Fung's 《女人唔易做》.Watched two episodes on the com,it's nice..=D
Been so addicted to Ron Ng's 《學警雄心》 and Niki Chow's 《秀才遇著兵》.Watching 《學》 is like fulfilling my own dream of being a policewoman, which is very impossible. Unless like what people say,work in the admin dept.And 《秀》 is so damn funny and Niki's so cute.
Don't call me a TV addict, i'm a TVB addict. Don't expect me to sit there and watch those Korean serials, I don't like shows which i can predict what's gonna happen next.I can't stand SG's and Taiwan's too.

Basically my life had been like that.Haha,at least update so u guys will know.Going shopping soon!Yay!

Don't ask me wy i took a photo of my textbook.I'm just bored while studying.
Eww..the sight of it makes me sick.

Hp chain bought at NP "Orchard Road".
Qing Ann Kym (Mark of friendship =D)

These days i'm called the part-time babysitter and part-time student.
Why?Because of him,Isaac,on mondays,the only day i can reach school at 12pm,I have to wake up early because of him.=)
Cute...
Not clear..but that's my sis and her children.Pretty mum.

*無賴~

2006-02-11T15:26:00.000+08:00

Got back my results..L1R5: 10,L1R4: 8.
I've learnt to be contented,'cos the happiest people are the contented ones.

Talked on the phone,and was thinking of some things.
Some truths.
And...
Some things that I seemed to have forgotten.
Haha.

無賴

我间中饮醉酒很喜欢自由
常犯错爱说谎但总会内疚
遇过很多的损友学到贪新厌旧
亦欠过很多女人

怕结婚只会守三分钟诺言
曾话过要戒烟但讲了就算
梦与想丢低很远但对返工厌倦
自小不会打算

但是仍唯独你爱我这废人
出错你都肯去忍
然而谁亦早知不会合衬
偏偏你愿意等

为何还喜欢我我这种无赖
是话你蠢还是很伟大
在座每位都将我踩口碑有多坏
但你亦永远不见怪

何必跟我我这种无赖
活大半生还是很失败
但是你死都不变心跟我笑著捱
就算坏我也不忍心偷偷作怪

無賴...
How many of you think you're one?

*last day of work~

2006-02-03T22:13:00.000+08:00

First day of work..

"Jie,that's the building?Wah...ur office sure is nice.Silver colour,and it looks so new.GREAT!!"
"Nah...i thought so too.But that's not the one,ours is the one behind it."
*Brown old building*
"Oh..what the.."

Last day of work..

"Ay Ann...will you miss this place?"
*Turns and look at it..*
"Well,it's not that bad afterall..."

That's my feeling.
My first workplace,my first part-time job.
Remember how i went there being excited on the first day and got really bored but don't mind rotting there.
Remember how i was badmouthed on the third day and i had to tolerate.
Remember how i cried and wished i had been studying.
Remember how i hope to work with my sis but isaac's born.
Remember how i cope alone,trying to drown myself with work.
Remember how temperamental my boss was,and how afraid i was of her.
Remember how i complained bout work each and everyday.

But remember how we eat the wanton mee together.
But remember how we hit off so well with one another.
But remember how nicey hui understood me.
But remember how cutie cher shared her feelings.
But remember how joker flor tell her real funny jokes.
But remember how caring ya took care of all of us.
But remember how helpful az helped me with even the teeny weeny problem.
But remember how funny emi snatched seats for herself and me.
But remember how we go home together and laughed at the people around.(the 'lin junjie')

Afterall,things went on well.
At least i realise before i leave,those who seemed bad aren't too bad afterall.
And those who're good,you guys are still as great as before.

Take care people!
See ya guys!
=)

*Chinese New Year~

2006-02-01T20:54:00.000+08:00

My blog is back to that once a month update again,ha,wouldn't have come to blog if i didn't see that tag by shirley.

Been busy at work,not say 'busy'..but imagine yourself using the computer for 8 hours everday,will you still want to touch the keyboard or face the monitor when you get home?Haha,i can't wait to shoo away from the com.First thing that catches my eye everyday when i get home is TV of course,and then the bed,haha.But this fri's my last day finally,and i'm really gonna rest,it's funny how i'd rather rot at home,perhaps it's 'cos i'm turning into a TV addict,or rather i've already turned into one.haha.
There's still another set of TVB serial waiting for me now just right beside my TV,and after this,another set is coming too.It's never ending.

This yr's CNY,i can't say whether it's good or bad.But of course it's more to a goody side.I've found the real meaning of CNY,not just the ang baos,but there are more more to it.
I'm glad Pastor Mark explained everything to us and i start to find CNY meaningful.
But i'm turning into such a money face.
Maybe becos working makes me see how important money is.Earning money is not that difficult but to use the money in the right way is the difficult part,and now it seems like money is always not enough for me.Gotta buy specs and soon i'll have to buy contacts again.$$$
And this new yr,most ang baos shrunk,ha,but i won't complain much about that anymore,got ang bao happy already lah.Be contented.HAHA.After all the rounds of blackjack,i understand that the happiest people are the contented ones,haha.

Went to clinic on mon,realise that the patients are mostly children getting fever,sore throat and cough perhaps because of the heaty food they eat during this CNY,and me? Haven't even eat the heaty stuffs and i've lost my voice.I missed the tom yum soup,the pineapple tarts,the cuttlefish..blabla.But it's ok,well,there are 11 more days to the end of CNY.

Had two nightmares of the release of 'O' level results,maybe i'm really scared,ha.And even dream of lam fung can turn into a nightmare,wonder why.Well,i really need to relax and rest.

Quite a long post after a long time.Just let u guys know the few things that happen these days..
Happy Lunar New Year!!

*Christmas day~

2005-12-25T19:47:00.000+08:00

Christmas day is all about Christ Jesus...yeah...so don't you put X'mas day and cross out Christ,Christmas day will have no meaning without Christ.
Yes,and to everyone,have a Blessed Christmas!

Was looking through my previous posts,ok,i was really down.
But one thing i know, i was silly.
Yes,yes,i admit i had fallen,
But now i stand in faith.
We are the reason He gave His life.
I AM the reason.
That love...I don't need anything more than that.
Because no one can find anything bigger than that love.
His love is ALL that i need.
That principle of rest have been coming through my mind.
Rest...you can rest when you're working,you can rest when you're studying.
REST in God.
I've really been exerting myself too much.(Stress kills ok?)
But i've never forgotten what He has done for us.

It was a period of self-condemnation.
I denied it.
But NOW i'm OUT of it.
God didn't send His Son down to condemn us,but to SAVE us.

Today's message's bout self-condemnation.
A powerful message indeed.
Hit me hard in the head, and i woke.
=)
No condemnation.

I looked through my wallet,and saw this card from my friend.
Yes,Evelyn.
And she wrote to me, "your enthusiasm to lead people to Christ really inspire me to start TELLING THE WORLD about him."
So when and how did i start losing that enthusiasm...when did i start losing that passion?
I don't care anymore,'cos i don't see a need to think back those times.
What's important is that the passion's back!
Praise God!

All those troubles are not behind my head.
They are not even in my head anymore.
I have my Father in Heaven to take care of me.
=D

Christmas it's not about HoHoHo...it's about Christ Jesus.
And once again, may you have a Blessed Christmas!!!

*happy birthdays!!!~

2005-12-18T15:13:00.000+08:00

Woh!A great day indeed!!!
Thank God!
Isaac's born!
A new life!
And today's my sis's birthday.
Mummy and baby having the same birth date,isn't it great?
Yay!!!
BELLE AND ISAAC, HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!!
Heehee...
Isaac's must be my sis's greatest birthday gift!
So sweet...
=D

*bad week~

2005-12-17T22:28:00.000+08:00

Started work this week. Don't say that I'm crazy but i was really looking forward to work,but after i started work,i think it was a stupid and wrong decision.perhaps it would be better for me to just rot at home or something.
Haha,but i learnt something of course,and have gained some experience,important ones i suppose.
Actually normally it is not always the work that is tough,to me,i think what's more tough is how we manage the relationship with people especially those whom you have to face everyday.
In school,everything don't seem so bad,even if somebody is against you,you'll never feel too hurt.
Perhaps 'cos we're all of the same age,things didn't get so bad,and perhaps because we'll always have friends around to comfort us,there's always someone else to rely on.
But out there,it's not the same.
I'm so not used to that kind of life,that kind of people who like to badmouth people be it behind them, in front of them or in front of their supervisor.So many such things happen and i don't like it.
And there are always people that you'll never expect and the worst behaviour you've never come across.
But i'm glad i learnt some things, to be careful of people in the future.
There are always people who are 'dangerous' around.
Initially i couldn't take it,but i realise after some time,you'll just get used to it and find the people simply ridiculous,you can ignore them.
Wonder how long i'll work but it all depends. At least things did get better on fri. But i just pray that next week won't be a disaster.

I find myself so super unlucky at times.
Things didn't turn out the way i want. Have always been hoping for the day, but it turned out badly and i had to bear with the disappointment.
Perhaps i've hoped too much again.
So i'm left with disappointment and a bit of anger.
Others feel angry for me.
And i do think...
Perhaps it's just not worth it.
Why bother when it's not worth it.
I don't know.Ha.
But I'm kinda numbed by this. I'm used to it.

Well,the best thing in this week is that my relationship with my sis is getting even closer.
That's something great, and i tell her even things in my private life.
Well,hmmm...how private,that's like what the....
But it's nice talking to her,she understands.
And she's the one who shouted "IT'S NOT WORTH IT!!!"
Haha.
1 hr and 15 mins more to ur bday.Getting old...waha.
Don't worry,you'll stay youthful and pretty always remember?Ha.

And also you, yes you, the one i complained things to?
Yes...thank u.U've helped me alot alot.
Ha.
Not such a bad week after all.
Hmmm

*happiest day~

2005-12-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

I guess today's the happiest day already,for some reason,i'm not so 'down' today,but rather 'up',haha.
Maybe 'cos it's Fung's birthday?
It does affect,'cos I'm obsessed with him,haha.

Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthday to you..
Happy birthday to Ah Fung..
Happy birthday to you!

I'm not thinking too much about it anymore.
But i admit I still can't let go.
Well,it's supposed to be a happy day...so I'll be happy!
Fung ar Fung...

*Copyright of Fung's Label*

*me and myself~

2005-12-03T21:40:00.000+08:00

I really wonder whether things are getting better.
I thought so,i hope so.
But everytime,I'm left with only disappointment.
Once,twice,thrice....I really can't remember how many times.
I don't blame anyone,because I think I'm the cause of it.
Maybe this time I shall not hope anymore.
It hurts to hope for something.

I don't understand the people around me,even though I try.
Because basically I'm always in my own world.
Like now,blogging again and again,repeatingly,blogging about the same thing,about the same issue.
Blogging 'bout how regretful I am,blogging about how I hope for the better,blogging 'bout how i wish i can turn back time,blogging and blogging...just wishing that someone can hear me.
But can anyone hear?
No.
But at least I hear...
The sound of aloneless.
I'm really kind of lost.
I don't want to announce the end.
If only anyone hears.

I really cannot change the situation anymore,I'm only afraid that I'll change it for the worse.
Accept the things that I cannot change.
Perhaps I can't do it.
I can't accept.

If only I'm thought to read people's mind,perhaps I'll feel better now.
Right now,only I can pull myself out of this.
Because only I understand.
Because I feel ashamed.
Because I have only myself to depend.
Perhaps just one word from you and I'll be fine.
But I know for now,I have only myself.

*troubled enough~

2005-12-02T14:49:00.000+08:00

I'm troubled enough,i'm not expecting more.
But it keeps coming.
It's not that I didn't try to avoid,i did.
I don't want to be affected too,but I'm affected.
I don't understand at all.
I don't understand what people are expecting from me.
I just wish to rest,to break away from all these.
One is enough,don't create another one for me please.
It's already enough,enough,ENOUGH!
I feel like a failure.
Enough.

*sigh of the day~

2005-11-29T22:42:00.000+08:00

Ya...the sigh of the day.
My mum actually came up with a very 'stupid' question.
I cannot say it's stupid,but it kind of remind me of some unhappy stuffs.
Thanks to her.Ha,but I don't blame her,'cos she also don't know I'm sensitive to that question.

Anyway,right now i'm hoping to find a job at where my sis is working.Was preparing resume,and hopefully I can get a job there and start work soon.
It's time to get a job really.And my mum spoke to me today and made me feel I've got a very big responsibility in future,to take care of this family.Why tell me such things when I'm only 16 years old.Well,I'll definitely take up the responsibility,but of course after I've finished my studies.
Woh...Haha.
Anyway,it's good to get some work experience now.

Realised I'm such a mummy-girl these few days,mummy say go where i go where,mummy say do what i do what...Mummy first,everything second.
Actually,I love this feeling.

Yes Mummy!

always always always...AHHH...!

2005-11-28T22:47:00.000+08:00

Why is it always like that!!!I think I've really had enough.That indifferent attitude!!!Please keep it to yourself,don't show it to me.
I didn't mean to behave that way...you don't have to treat me the same way.
I know the chances are all gone,I just hope to retain abit of my pride...
I really don't know what to do now...
I'm getting my retribution now,go ahead,do what you want to do.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I really cannot take it anymore.I can't.I'm like locked!Locked in this stupid place.
I'm not angry,I know i don't have the right to,it all started with me.
But do i have to face such sarcasm and indifferent attitude?
I thought things are going to turn out for the better,i really think so.I didn't know what I've done will cause all these.I've brought everything upon myself.I deserve it.

I hate things this way.But what can i do?
I keep trying to lie to myself.
But i know i can't.
I just wish to hold on,if you allow me to.
I just blame everything on myself.
I've pushed...instead of pull.
I realise,I always start to feel irritated,I've always been showing the same attitude you show to me.
It's something...uncontrollable.
I don't understand.I don't like it too.
But I think i'm used to this.
You made me.
But I'm sorry.

The thing is...nobody understands a thing.What's the use...hai.

*away~

2005-11-27T16:50:00.000+08:00

Always blog when I'm not feeling good.This place has become somewhere where i can throw things out.But how much can i say,how fully can i express myself here,this is really still not the place,but already the best place i can speak.

Have been wondering what has really gotten into me.Until today something just struck me.I keep trying to do things...trying and trying,but the more i try,the more helpless i get.I've relied on myself too much.Nobody can rely on their puny little weak self too much.Nobody can,yet i see myself as strong,thought myself as strong,and thought i can always rely on myself.Even when the whole world's away,i still have myself.I wonder am i dumb or wat.

I don't know whether is it I myself who let every chance that i may have to just slip away.I've seen chances slipping away again and again,i allowed it to.I was afraid to grab the chance,but now i see how stupid,how foolish i am.I'm not the only one in this world,i'm one in many,what am i?
Nothing.

I've had enough,I've really had enough,i really don't like to feel this way.I don't care whether people think that i'm self-absorbed.When you're faced with a situation,where you feel like doing something so so much,yet afraid to do it,and at the same time let every chance that you can get to do this thing slip away,how can you not feel helpless.I just feel stupid.

I've always thought i'm doing fine,but this thing has snatched away peace from me,killed my senses.Now i understand why i keep flaring up,why i can't just think of things properly.I've tried to escape,but in this path of escape,i always knock into the same situation.Why don't someone just knock me out.I've really had enough.

Maybe i'm just too zhi zhuo about some things.Maybe i should just let it go.
I'm like a monster.
I hate memories.
I hate things now.
I want to let it go,but i hate to do it.
Don't tell me to do it.
I'm already having a hard time here.

*cold~

2005-11-22T21:52:00.000+08:00

The weather's really cold,woo...didn't go out the past two days for this reason,but it's still great spending time watching Hong Kong serial at home.=D

Don't really know what to blog actually,but don't like the blog entry to just stop there.
Days have really been great,especially when it's holidays.I can take my whole mind off all the textbooks and stuffs,'O's been quite tiring seriously,now we've finally got some free time.
But many things also changed during this period of time.
Be it people,be it things...problems are suddenly 'popping' out unknowingly.
Don't like the way when I'll start thinking about many things once i'm alone,once i'm not accompanied by TV.I can't possibly stick to the TV 24 hours yah,i'm nearly doing so already.Me and my favourite TV,VCDs,DVD player...
Once I leave all these aside awhile,things will come back into my mind.
Like fighting war like that.
Problems don't happen without a reason,I know i'm the cause,but I can't help it.
Maybe not people have changed,not anything has changed,perhaps i have changed.
I'm better off living in my own dream seriously.I'm not worried 'cos I've set a place that i'll always belong.
That little land.

*friends?~

2005-11-15T18:09:00.000+08:00

"the better for my foes,and the worse for my friends"--Feste

'Good friends'...how do u define that?

*dream guy~

2005-10-26T13:02:00.000+08:00

Was wondering what to post,so i posted this!
Hahaha,okie,that's really lame,but let u guys see my dream guy.
Ha...i mean serious,he does appear in my dream quite often.
Dreaming...
Yeah,just a dream,allow me to dream,haha.
Okie,who else but him?
Raymond Lam Fung.

*This photo is copyrighted by Fung Label.*

*it's over~

2005-10-24T18:03:00.000+08:00

I really wish to know,
But since i've decided to put everything aside,
Why bother.
It's better not to know,
To keep myself in the dark.
All hope's gone.
Empty.
The hope i've tried to hold on,
It's blown away.
It's over.
Yes,it's over.

I don't give a damn...

*pissed~

2005-10-22T18:18:00.000+08:00

Damn...never felt so pissed before.

So angry i thought i'll never forgive.

But i can never be angry for long(it really depends).

Was filled with so much frustration that i grew tired.

God knows what you're thinking.

It'll be best to leave me ALONE now.

SHOO.

Sick and tired.

YOU KNOW WHAT,I'M TIRED!!!!

WHAT'S YOUR PROBLEM!

Nah...i've cooled down.

I'm still me.

You're forgiven.

*graduation day~

2005-10-21T21:49:00.000+08:00

Well,today's officially the last day of school for us.
Think i'll somewhat miss the school next yr.
Hmmm...it's 'cos of the memories shared.
Won't forget my close friends here and the teachers.
Man...i'm gonna miss Mrs Selva,Mr Tan ST/HS,Mr Kuek,Mdm Quek and the super CUTE Mr Peacock!
And Mr Osgodby too...won't forget his scoldings and jokes.haha.
Since i'm already saying all these,ha,i shall say something to Bobos too.(actually quite lame,we'll still stick together anyway.=D)

Hey you guys have really been great,so great,so so great,couldn't have survived without u guys.(aww...so unlike me to say that.=p)
U guys really never leave me when i need u all.You guys are always there,shared lots of joyous moments together.Though i'm always said to be the stupid one(but i'm smart =D),but seriously i'm used to it already,ha,Bobos are close because they like to tease each other and bully each other(wow.cool~hahaha).
Rainbo,*muacks*.You're really so sweet and helpful all the time.Though sarcastic at times(no wonder u love Osgodby),but you're so adorable....(the cute whale).And my dear Titanic...thanx for everything!=)
Rambo,ahhh...i may seem like i always anti you,but that's not true lah.behind the scene we quite good right.hee.You're the one who i can really stick with.Nan ren,don't daydream already,choose me,not Daniel Wu!=D
Lanbo,stop calling me stupid!I mean stop calling me stupid!hahaha.k lah,stupid and idiotic guy(not an insult =p),always argue with you,like to go against you,but well,you're not so bad lah.Without you,our grp will be very dull too.So,continue with the STUPID things u do(heart attack?ha).
Lambo,SHUAI GE!!!=D that's enough to make you happy.Been good friends with u since sec1,ha,i'll never forget your 'Zao an' joke...hee.Don't get bullied by Lanbo,fight him fight him fight him!waha.=p
Jumbo,cutie girl,ha,look innocent but super scheming.=p Ok lah,i allow u to continue to go NTUC to buy groceries ok,aunty?Hee...i remembered how u vomitted when i danced,i'll always remember.=p but it's really fun to be with u,sweet liar!=D

Shit...i typed so much and it's so crappy...
Argh...
Just leave it if you don't wanna read.

*numbed~

2005-10-15T19:39:00.000+08:00

Things are going to get better...
Not because of whatever that's going to happen,
Just that...
I've decided to put everything aside.
I want to leave it there
And not bother 'bout what's gonna happen.
I've tried too hard to make certain things happen by my own effort.
I mean no,i try to try hard,but eventually i did nothing.
It's all the thoughts,the thoughts that are making me tired.
The hope...

We always get bothered 'bout "If only..." and "What if..."
"If only" i had done this,that would not have happen.
"What if" i do this,things will turn out for the worse.
It's no use thinking of "If only..."s and "What if..."s
But i just do...
Not just me alone...
Almost everyone does.
Regrets and uncertainties...
Oh crap.Just leave me alone from these.

I just don't wanna bother anymore.
Numbed.

*off and off i go~

2005-10-11T20:29:00.000+08:00

I didn't want to come here,but where else can i go and what else can i do...
I want to vent it all out,shout it all out,get away from all these,lock myself away,i don't want to stay on like this anymore...
But what can i do.
I'm tired,sick,frustrated,lost...i feel stupid
No where to go...
No direction.
Is it so dark ahead...
I don't want to hide the truth.
I didn't like this,and don't like this.
I want to get away.
Isolated.
Blown away.
I know it's going to continue this way.
So be it.
Off and off i go.
That's the best i can do.
Off and off i go.

*evil~

2005-10-10T22:13:00.000+08:00

Evil to give a person false hope...
Evil to keep the person waiting when you don't feel the same for him/her anymore.
Evil to be enjoying yourself,yet the other party is kept in the dark.
Evil to pick on the person when you no longer love him/her.
Evil to make him/her hold on to hope.
Evil for not being direct,not being straightforward.
Evil to think so highly of yourself and putting others down.
Evil to think all that look upon you loves you.
Evil for having been so good to him/her but turned him/her away just because you're bored.
Evil for the friends who know the truth but dare not tell him/her.

Evil...how evil can you get?Put yourselves down and think...
How EVIL you are...

*weakness~

2005-10-08T23:33:00.000+08:00

Have not really changed...still like that.

Born to be this way,but things that they go through make them grow up,think differently,but their weakness,is still there.Just that they can control it better.

But it's still there.

It'll surface at times...

And only they themselves will realise it...

Nobody is strong...

Everyone falls,and help themselves up...

Then they grow,that's the way things go.

The only thing that can destroy you is your weakness...the only thing that can help you is your weakness too...

Contradict?Yes...

But that's the way things go...

Things can turn out to be better in one way or another.

That is it...

*hope~

2005-10-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

People who are feeling sad are not the worst,but those who feel sad yet put a smile on their faces are the worst...Not true.
They are not trying to pretend to be happy.
Not trying to deceive others,not trying to deceive themselves.
They know very well what is happening,not self-deluding,not trying to numb themselves.
They just want happiness,who don't?
The smile on their face is not what people describe as "fake"...it only shows they still hold on to hope.
Hope...
Some people really may not be as happy as they seem...they may laugh all they want,but even when their heart is filled with sadness,they trust that there's still hope,they hold on to it...
Strong?no...just hope...
Optimistic?no...
All they want is that sweetness and happiness.
Just for this,they remain hopeful,they strive.
That hope keeps them moving on...
Yes...move on...

*rainbow~

2005-09-01T18:31:00.000+08:00

I want my life to be like a rainbow...so full of colours...happiness is in the air.
I looked into the sky...Rainbow...tears trickled down my cheeks.
I wasn't sad...i was happy...
Something filled my heart.
All the worries are gone...
I'm so easily satisfied...
I've found something really true in my life,have you?
I've found it...i have...=)

Watch out for the movie "Wait till you're older" starring Andy Lau.An interesting plot,what's more interesting is Andy actually...haha.=p

Project Superstar finals today.JunYang is already out,for me,there's actually not much to look forward to anymore,ha,but well,the competition still goes on.Hmmm...wonder who'll be the Superstar?Weilian?or Kelly?

*where do i belong~

2005-08-31T23:26:00.000+08:00

My mind's so filled...

So in love with Lin Jun Jie's songs...

What kind of entry is this...

Oh crap.

*festival of praise~

2005-08-07T15:32:00.000+08:00

Went to Festival of Praise...woh...cool~ i love that feeling.
It's great to worship God!
Delirius is really cool~ Woohoo...hahaha.Okiex,really not 'cos of the lead singer,no,though i think he's cute...heehee,there i go again.=x haha,but they r really cool lah!haha
God's presence is really overwhelming...i'm really touched.
For all those who never go,hai...u all really miss something great,nvm...next yr...haha.
Well,yesteday everything was great except for the queuing part.We didn't know the queue will be so long,but i must say they r quite organised already,they had this 'batch operating system',haha.But,i got to stand very long while queuing,that's the part i couldn't take.By the end of everything,the leg aching is not the one i injured,but the good leg.Haha,'cos i put most of my weight on that leg,in the end i got to take cab home.

But guess what,after all the standing,my leg is even better today!That's definitely God's work...=D
You're all i want to rely on...

All I need is you
All I need is you Lord,is you Lord

*happiness~

2005-07-30T16:19:00.000+08:00

Life is full of happiness if u want it to be!
Hehe...
I thought about quite alot of things this week...realised they have been meaningful and are things tha taught me how to enjoy life...heehee...=)
My life is full of colours,and i too want the same for everyone.
It's nice to brighten up one's day...=D

Haha...went for acupuncture today.'Cos X-ray say nothin wrong with bone,so i go do something bout ligament lor.Haha...*claps*.I'm so brave today i actually dare to let the person do acupuncture for me...haha.=p
Ok lah,think my leg can recover soon...=)

*smilex~
Life is wonderful!=D

*every beat of my heart~

2005-07-24T19:45:00.000+08:00

So here we stand
Anchored in hope
Letting the rain wash away every fear
Stars in the sky
Twinkle and shine
I pray they won't disappear

'Cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I will be watching over every beat of your heart

I wish that time
Could be replayed
I'd keep you here with me everyday
They say that love is letting go
I hope that you find your way

'Cause I don't know
where your journey goes
or how long it will take to unfold
But as long as we keep this moment shining in the dark
I know you're watching over every beat of my heart

-Corrinne May

*Ann~

*here i am~

2005-07-19T19:23:00.000+08:00

I tried my best to keep my cool,but i still fell into it...u say it's good?it's bad?haha...i don't know.Many things are changing...turn and turn and turn...where do i stand?Expect the unexpected.Well,life goes on...
Haha...

Shirley,i read your story already...u've kept me in suspense...continue your story!=)

*happy birthday~

2005-07-16T23:50:00.000+08:00

Woohoo~!
Had great fun today...like drunk like dat...drink more drink more!*burp* hahaha...(-_-")

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO BPGHS
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!!!

*WOOO!~

Happy birthday to Jocelyn too! *muacks*

Wah...have never felt that i love school so much...hahaha.

*sigh~

2005-07-15T22:25:00.000+08:00

Feel really sick and tired at times.I wonder why as i get older,i think a lot.I mean,a lot.I don't know when it happened,but i start to get bothered about what people think about me.I wasn't lik that.Life gets very difficult that way.I really don't know what to do.I hope i can hear people speak and forget all about it after that,but i can't.It stays within me.Why?!?I don't understand.

Here i am worrying about my X-ray...there,people say that i'm pretending.The doctor just said the he saw something wrong from the X-ray,but he's not at bones...he don't really know what's wrong,i have to wait for confirmation.What do u want me to do to prove to you that i'm not pretending.Who will want to walk with difficulty...who will want to limp all day.NO ONE!What's there to pretend about?You wanna try it?You wanna try spraining ur ankle for the fifth time?Try to walk fast then...if u can,try to walk normally.If u can do it...i admire you...
Maybe to you,it's nothing...but i care...i care...

I respect you...i really do.But i feel disappointed now.
What i need is not sympathy...is understanding.I'm surprised you cant even get this point...i nv pretend to get sympathy.You know ur status,all the more u shud be understanding.i thought u r understanding enough.I'm hurt...hurt by you.Hurt by your insensitive words.Is this one of your jokes?But i cant catch the joke,it hurts.
I feel very bad for troubling so many people already,stop making me feel guilty.I cant stand guilt.You may not be this way...but i am.

The one who asks me to believe in myself...does not believe in me.You know it hurts?

But in any ways,i thank all those who have been understanding,especially Bobos,and the st. john girls,and Evelyn,and those who have been praying for me. And i'm really sorry for all the trouble,especially to 4T1...

getting emotional all of a sudden...what do you want out of me?
i find that people are so scary.I may be scary to other people too.We don't know what others are thinking about.Next time when i go to work,i may meet those really scheming people.
How do i trust people when people don trust me?

*sprained ankle~

2005-07-08T19:14:00.000+08:00

My goodness,spraining ankle is no cool thing,especially when you've sprained it so many times.

I sprained my ankle lor,wat else,if not i won't be talking about it now.Today during PE lesson,we played floorball,i accidentally stepped on the ball and sprain my ankle,so pain i just fell to the ground.I sprained my ankle many times already,this is the first time it's so painful.Can't walk,i tried to walk to the General Office from the field but really cannot.Hop six steps must rest.Of course take a very long time lah.Haha,but in the end i was carried there...that's much faster.=D Really got to thank all my friends for helping.Hee...i won't say the St. John members only know how to ask "Are you ok?" already.They really helped me alot.And must must thank Yan Ming too.Yun Tong also.Hey guys,you're cool!Good friends man!St. john,basketball and NCC...wow,all CCAs are good in their own ways.Haha...okie...fine,i think that's lame.Haha.

Got to rest lor,have been slacking the whole day actually.Since i can't walk,i just lie and not move,my goodness,i know it'll be better if i sit at the table and do Amaths...i know...but just let me rest lah ok.Haha.

*memories~

2005-07-03T16:15:00.000+08:00

Suddenly thought of some things...
There are some things which are always kept in the mind,cannot be erased...they just stay...that's why they are called memories.
Well,it's good to keep some good memories actually.
Thought of the things that happened,the happy days.Short but i cannot forget...
Hmmm...sometimes when i think of them,i'll smile,sometimes i'll frown.We see how people change,how things around us change.Change,change,change,everything is changing,and i wonder how's he now...
Well,but at least i know one who'll never change,and that's God!
=D
Haha...well...just filled with memories all of a sudden...

*BPian Idol 2005~

2005-07-01T21:33:00.000+08:00

SYAHIR ROCKS!

Hehe...i think he really deserve to win.I wanted him to win actually and when he did,i was so happy.Haha.He very cute lah,got X-factor...=D
Cool~!
But at backstage when i see some guy very upset,i feel very sad for them,want to go console,but don't know how to console.
Well...just feel happy for Syahir!!!=D

Well...today somethings happen...
Sometimes i dono why things that are not good must happen...

*All for Love~

2005-06-07T19:49:00.000+08:00

All for love a Father gave
For only love could make a way
All for love the heavens cried
For love was crucified

Oh how many times have i broken Your heart
But still You forgive
If only i ask
And how many times have You heard me pray
Draw near to me

Everything i need is You
My beginning,my forever
Everything i need is You

really touched...

*love~

2005-06-06T19:11:00.000+08:00

Last week seemed to be a week when i felt really down.I also cannot explain why but I feel like i'm all alone,lost and confused,but there's no need to explain too,'cos i'm fine now,everything's fine.isn't that great?=D

For the past few weeks,I asked God some questions,but i thought,"God,where are you,why aren't you answering me.Where have you been...Why have you left me alone here to bear all these"
But even in times when i feel really down,when i refuse to turn to God,He's doing His work in me.I wanted to avoid God by not going to Edge,but God is real,and He's wonderful.He really has his reasons for guiding me to New Creations Church.I went yesterday and God spoke to me,he answered all my questions,took away all my doubts,comforted me,and i feel greatly blessed and deeply loved.I shall never keep looking to the disappointments but look to God,for He has told me to do so. God is really faithful...He is faithful.I can't explain that kind of warmth and comfort.I'm just overjoyed to be close to Him again.Jesus died on the cross for me,paid the price for me,He'll never forsake me.

There was once a person felt so down,he was crying while he was walking home and he told God,"God...it's definitely a mistake for You to make me.Why make me but You never use me greatly?"
After a while,God replied,"My child,i can make another sun,i can make another moon,but i can't make another you."

I love you
All of my hope is in You
Jesus Christ,take my life
Take all of me

Jesus,i love you!

*poor mummy~

2005-05-30T16:54:00.000+08:00

Oops...poor mummy...now cannot stand properly,sit and stand also so uncomfortable.She sprain her back,don't know whether sprain is the right word to use actually.Aiyoh,but so poor thing...

Haha...had gastric flu on Friday and i never go to school.Felt very guilty,'cos i heard Mr Tan actually ask for me during morning assembly but i was absent...so paiseh.Makes me feel that i'm like very irresponsible like that,i never go school and give that speech,but just hope that he won't hold it against me.=)

Heard that i missed out quite alot on Friday.Haha,'cos they had a talk with Steph,and i think things are getting a lot worse now.I thought perhaps the talk will be like,can make both parties feel better.Wah,i never expect it to turn out so bad really.I got to ask them more tomorrow when i go back to school le.Oh yah,strange right,how come holidays still need to go back to school.All 'cos of ISP lor,intensive study programme,what else.But i don't blame them really,i think it will help bah,at least it will help a bit.This holidays i gotta work very hard for my Amaths already,but i haven't start doing any A-maths yet!Argh...i don't want to get F9 again.It's definitely a scary grade that i don't want to get again.

I finished watching the set of Hong Kong Serials already."Handful of Love",so nice!!!!Ok lah,maybe the serial is like very plain like that,not exciting or whatsoever,but it talks about those family relationships and i find the show very sweet and meaningful.Many people gave negative remarks about the show but i think it is not that bad afterall,at least got Ma De Zhong...i think enough le lah...=p Heehee...

These few days,i realised some things,realised how i've suddenly lost self-confidence but i don't know about it at all until yesterday,but i trust God will help me,and will carry me through any situations.At least now i'm not afraid,i don't fear.

God is the strength of my heart...

*career talk~

2005-05-19T20:52:00.000+08:00

Woah!!!Today got career talk~!Haha...actually there's nothing to be excited about.But i just think that this career talk somehow help me.Before the career talks,some ex-BPians from the different JCs came back to our school to talk about the criteria to go into their JCs and their JC's strength.I'm happy that they came back for this 'cos they gave some useful advices.They said the main reasons why some people choose JC over Poly.Other than the fact that JC students have better chance to go into University,other reasons are also like...if you still do not know which career path you will take,we can go JC so that we can give ourselves more time to think about it,and we can be exposed to more things which can help in our decision.Whereas if like some people,they are very sure of their choice,they are very sure what career they want...then perhaps going to Poly is better.Somehow,i get to know,maybe i should go JC.

I feel like going to VJC...like very attractive.The subject combinations and the wide range of CCAs...just that VJC is so far!But don't know how lah,VJC seems like so good,and i am almost determined to study hard into there,but its location is stopping me from choosing VJC.Hehe.And NJC seems attractive too...but the studying environment seems stressed...aiyoh!Other than that is HCJC...a JC which i've always been saying i don't want to go,but after today,i changed my opinion about the school.Of course not only want to go into good JCs...if can go,of course should be go lah...but i won't mind PJC too.I want to know more about SAJC...tell me more about it anyone?

Then i went for the career talk on Psychology.Oops...but attending doesn't mean i have to be a psychologist mah.But the talk is really helpful.I think i understand more about the psychology field.At least now i know there are so many different types of psychologist...i need not always be counselling people,which many people think i cannot do it.I'm pretty interested in being a neuropsychologist.But clinical,educational,counselling psychologists are not bad too.Just that we've got to deal with many patients,which is the part i'm worried about.I'm worried that i'll be greatly affected by their problems too.But psychologists can be doing research too.Need not work in hospitals or clinics.Organisational psychologist is an atractive profession too.
I went to ask about animal psychology but Singapore never offer this...='(
He says it's very rare even in the States...But really,i don't believe you don't have an animal psychologist in the Zoo?

But there's no short-cut to anything...for now,i gotta work hard.The ex-BPians scored F9 for their Amaths too but they managed to go into RJC,NJC,VJC...so i must work hard too...=D

*new blogskin~

2005-05-18T19:44:00.000+08:00

Haha...okie lah,kinda obvious i changed blogskin.I don't know why i always take a very long time to change blogskin...=p.
After this maybe i'll go blog The Bobos' blog...kinda pathetic 'cos i think no one is blogging.But i like that blog's blogskin though.Asmond so clever right.Haha.

These few days still getting back results.I still have my two humanities haven't come back.History and Lit.Must do well for these two le.Cannot have poor grades for all subjects.My maths was really terrible.I got back my results yesterday and i never pass both.Able to understand how i feel?I'm really very very sad...I've never failed until like that before...but at least i'm alright now.Hehe.'Cos even though i am asked to drop Amaths...i'm sure of my own choice.I DON'T WANT TO DROP!Hehe...Mr. Peacock,gimme a chance...=) Yanming,Joyee and me today shook hands say must work hard together.Maths really need alot alot of practice.Perhaps tuition can help too?=)
Even if Mr Peacock insist i drop,i will ask Mr Kuek to help me!I'm not 'consistently poor' in my maths,so don't make me drop!!!AHHH!!!

Meet-the-parents session for the school one is coming.I don't like.I think this will be the first time my parents will be asked to come even if they don't want to come.These days,i don't even know how to face my form teacher.Today she was asking Xueting and Shirley why they did badly,Wenxiang and I were so scare that she'll ask us that we quickly run away to the toilet.I feel really bad about it...i wonder what the comments on the report slip will be like.
But aiyah...i'll stop thinking about it le...

These days have been watching VCDs...my aunt lend me the Hong Kong dramas that she rented.Really nice...a show about family relationships.Think can relate very well,and my mum and I were sometimes so touched that we cried.It's a very very nice show.Haha.But i haven finish watching yet.

Hungry hungry...but no food to eat...haha...=p

*wow!!!i'm blogging!!!~

2005-05-13T22:24:00.000+08:00

WAH!I'm blogging...that is like FINALLY!!!
Haha...it's been like nearly two months!NEARLY!but havent...haha...so dusty...*blow and dust flying everywhere*...clean up first,haha,no lah,=p.

What else...exams period...3 weeks lah actually,so is i lazy to blog,nothing to do with e exams.
This year's mid-yr is really horrible.i mean seriously H-O-R-R-I-B-L-E!Hai...today get back bio practical...i did badly,and i already know i wun get A for Bio already.Teachers are not encouraging,but say wat "i'm disappointed","i expect more from you".Argh...shush...why am i talking about this again.This is really going to make myself moody.*throw this aside*

Haha,main thing gonna talk about is what we did after exams!!!Very long never go out together with e '02 clicks' already.Really fun to go out with them again.Dono whether u all feel dis way,but at least i feel this way.It's really fun.Even though we may not have done things that r very meaningful,and we did stupid things somemore,but i'm really happy.

Went Causeway Point eat Pizza Hut...this is e part i enjoy,Dot,did u?=p hey,not the eating part lor,it's e part after eating.We were using the glasses and straws and everything that's on the table,including water,to do some 'Arts'.Not bad leh,quite nice,quite 'artistic' lah we...=p.
But the most funny part,is when we call each other names and we are now the BOBOS!!!Okie...that is seriously lame.We've got Dumbo,Jumbo,Rambo,Rainbo,Lanbo(oh,this is real disgusting,=p),and Lambo!!I'm not going to say which one am i...heehee.Stupid lah actually,it's like we cannot grow up rite,but funny,really enjoy all these 'childish' stuffs.Hehe.
We took neoprint together as the Bobos...but hor...haha,all take until so funny.We are still starting a blog for the Bobos,and i'm uploading photos!!!AIYOH...later you see i don wan to put all the photos...=p.
And we started talking all bout the OBS thing...haha.So long already we still keep talking about it...complains...experience...blablabla...we really get to chat quite alot with one another.Have not talk to them for quite some time already,especially to Lanbo and Lambo.

And guess what,i bought a new pencil case,ok lah,really don so bad to Weijie...i mean Lanbo(hehe)...i'm serious,if no one say dat pencil case is ugly,i seriously wun change lor.I really wun.Actually pencil case is jux a pencil case,but when ppl keep sayin it's ugly...i feel lik changing...*shrugs*...hehe.

Exams over!!!Though the exam perios has been really tough,but God helped me through.=>
It's not nice to get poor results back really.I don't like it too.Felt down,but at least i'm not now.It's really nice to encourage someone,to make the person feel better.I may be feeling unhappy,but well,i think i cheered someone up today...and i'm so happy.Stella,hope i really succeeded cheering u up hor...hehe...=D

*wonderful wonderful~

2005-03-27T14:38:00.000+08:00

Well,just want to blog something here.

God is good.WOOHOO~
On Friday,yeah,Good Friday...went to church of course,and Jocelyn,Wenxiang and Yi Kwan came along.Well,it was really great.It is always great to see souls saved.
Actually on thursday i was feeling really really bad...Joash asked me to go for the drama thing 'cos they need casts...but because my mum is very unhappy,i was really wondering whether i should go.I don't know what i should do.But it is only until they tell me they've found enough people for casts that i know i really want to go...and i'm so disappointed.And i was thinking why is it that it is so hard for my parents to come to know Christ...i was feeling so bad,i didn't know what to do.
I turn to God...and yes,i shouldn't have doubted God.I trust that God will touch my parents and my parents will come to know Him someday.

But i really thank God,on thursday,Yi Kwan was asking me why i feel sad and i told him,and it is then that he knows about the drama and he asks whether he can come along.I mean of course,especially when he's so keen.And i'm really glad he came to our church and got saved on that day!
Praise God!

And God touched Jocelyn too.Well,she's feeling confused...she is still not assured that God touched her and that's y she feels this way but i know she will come to know God better.Though i was feeling quite disappointed that she didn't know what the sinners prayer is about,but yep,i thank God for coming into her heart and touch her.
God is wonderful!

And I will sing of Your love
And Your mercy forever
Reaching down from above
With a plan for my future
I'll forever proclaim
Of the goodness and power of Your name
And I will worship you Lord
All my days

You're all that I'm living for

Cry Holy

2005-03-24T21:48:00.000+08:00

A wonderous mystery in the pages of history
Of a Man who bled and died for me
He's more than a story
He's the One who hung upon that tree
He's crimson flow poured out for me
He gave His life to set me free

And i fall down
I fall down

I fall down on my knees
And cry Holy is the Lord
Worship Him
Worship Him and adore

Lord,I'll worship you forever...

*planetshakers~

2005-03-20T14:23:00.000+08:00

Hehe...came back from service quite some time ago,just now was looking through other's blogs!So many people were talking about PlanetShakers concert!!!WOH!!!!I'm still so excited...hahaha...I WANT MORE!!!WOH!!!!HEHE...

This March holidays is the best!Yes,the best!
From thurs to sat,have been going to watch PlanetShakers concert.It's GREAT GREAT GREAT!!!WOH!!!!!!went for all three days,though these three days very late go home,this never do that never do,but it doesn't matter...'cos it's all worth it!Yes!Woh!

First day,which was thursday,few people went for the concert,but still,it was awesome!!!The atmosphere was like "woh!ahhhh!i love this!!!" The presence of God is there,God is wonderful!God is awesome!
PlanetShakers is really good...woh! *Everybody jump around in the house of God!Hey,hey,jump around!* Hehe...yes indeed,everyone was like jumping n jumping...jumping n jumping....woh!So excited about God!
Then it's like initially Dot and me only bought tickets for thurs's concert,and for sat's one which we are going for the one day conference,but we are so excited,we want more!and we quickly try to ask ppl to help us buy tickets for fri night.I was worried we cant get tickets at first...but hey,there's nothing that our God cannot do!Thank God we found Clement to help us buy tickets!WOOHOO~!

Yes!It's friday night!More people came...and again,the concert was so GREAT!!!Man...now as i'm blogging...my mind is like..."WE WANT MORE!WE WANT MORE!"...Hehe.
Then on this day,Canaan and Brian came!!!We were all like persuading them to come to come to come...and yes!They finally decided to come!!!Hehe...and they never regret coming!And they even decided to go again on saturday!And they brought friends!WOH!

Wow!On Saturday...haha!Let's start with this...I'm supposed to meet Dot at CCK at 7.45am 'cos conference starts at 10am and we need to register first...and guess what!
I woke up in the morning...around 7.46am...i felt a long vibration..."Dorothy Hp"...
"Hello,Khee Onn,where are you?"
*stunned* "OH NO!!!!OH NO!!!I'M AT HOME!!!I JUST WOKE UP!!!"
hahaha...it was so scary lah!'cos there's no way i'm able to reach pasir ris by 9 something if i take train.I was so worried...i was asking God what i should do!And yes!!!!My brother!!!Thank God my brother's at home,and i quickly ask him to drive me down,and surprisingly,he said YES!!!So far he also dont mind!!!Thank God!
In the end reached earlier than Dot,Miao and Ash...but...i'm worse,i wake up so late.=p

The conference is good...yes it is...i'm so touched by God.Through this,i really feel restored...
Hehe...and know what...since morning,Dot and me were already excited!We are so eager to go for the PlanetShakers concert!We were like singing and singing their songs...*Jesus,i will live for You...in everything i do...i'm holding onto You...ALWAYS!Always and forever!*Hehe...and we were like going crazy...we are really very very excited.We cannot hide our excitement!!!not like Miao,who claims she hides it...u really did?Hehe...=p
It's like around 5pm like that...i'm really too excited.I've never felt so excited before...i cant cool down!Xinmiao tell me to cool down,and i try to keep quiet...cannot...cannot sit still...cannot keep quiet...my heart is beating so so fast!!!HEHE!!!
When suddenly Dot and Miao say we have to stand very far away 'cos the queue's very long already,we were so worried.But i think where we were standing eventually is ok...well,it doesn't matter where we are standing!HEHE!!the last day was really AWESOME!Many people came,the place is so packed!All of us really enjoyed ourselves.
God is so wonderful!!!

It's like after everything ended...Dot and me suffered from withdrawal symptoms...we really want MORE MORE MORE!!!I WANT MORE!!!AHHH!!!
Let's be patient and wait for SonicFest which is in July...PlanetShakers and Hillsongs are comin!WOH!great yeah?WOOHOO!!!
It's like through this three days,i can really feel myself restored.I feel God giving me the strength...Yes,been going through some not so good things recently...but the hunger for God is back...Yes,i live for God alone!

I'm hungry for Your fire
I'm desperate, You're my one desire
Jesus, please don't pass me by...

I need You more than ever
I'm thirsty for a touch from Heaven
Jesus,please don't pass me by...

*cameron highlands~

2005-03-16T23:45:00.000+08:00

Quite late already,but i just come to blog 'cos i'm waiting for my hair to dry...haha.Just came back from Cameron Highlands,i'm really tired,but i'll just blog finish first.

Went Cameron Highlands since Sunday...Right...let me just talk about the trip bah.

First day:

I was really really sad the first day.It's like really regret going like that.I was like thinking it would have been better off staying in Singapore and i can do more homework.I just cried lah,den my parents they all keep telling me to just tolerate for four days...Anyway,i also cannot go back once we're up there le.The first day was really bad 'cos the weather is very hot,even when we are high up there.And people keep saying Cameron Highlands is a place with beautiful sceneries,but no,it's a place of greenery.That makes a very big diff...eveything there are vegetables and flowers.A place without animals is boring....

We also took a long time to travel there.'Cos of all the stoppings,we reach there only 9 hrs later.And i'm really very tired.And please,the hotel is bad,i cant believe it's a 4-star hotel.The swimming pool can dry up!That's exaggerating...since ur swimming pool dries up,i'll take away one star from u.

And i got flu too,everything was just bad...

But i really thank God for taking away all those unhappiness and worries from me and made me enjoy the trip somehow.

Went for this steamboat dinner that's like so stupid lah,cheat money one...one person $12...but the food is so so little...argh...haha.

Second day:

It was alright...went outside to take a look.Went to places like honey bee farm and bought honey home.Haiyo...at first i'm so scare to go there...'cos of bees lah.But anyway,not so scary afterall,i nv go disturb them,they nv come disturb me.Then was having diarrhoea...and the person say drink warm honey can cure diarrhoea,so i like kiasu lik dat,keep takin takin small cups to drink.Haha!

Then also went to those places with tea plantation...but e workplace was closed,so we just took photos at the tea plantation there.So scary,'cos we're very high up,and i fear heights...so stupid...i take photo oso take until very uneasy.My aunt keep laughin at me 'cos i'm trembling...haha.

Then just drive here drive there then eventually went back to hotel lor.They play mahjong,i do homework...did abit only,sad...

Then dinner we clever le,went to a place to eat,cheap and nice,we nv get cheated le...hehe.

Finally it starts to rain,and the weather become very very cold.That's what Cameron Highlands shud be lik mah,hehe.

Third day:

Actually third day is the best day.Weather nice nice and i got to pick my own strawberries,was picking until so happy,den i pick pick pick...buy le...my mum ask me to eat...i don wan...y?'Cos i don like strawberries...HAHA!Stupid rite,i pick already then i don eat,my mama think i extra.Haha.My fav. is mango...no strawberries...i pick strawberries just for the fun of it.

Haha...then we wanted to go see waterfall.Fall ur head lah,dry up already,lame rite.How lame can they get.Haha...then went to walk walk and stuffs like that.

I was asked to go to a temple.But my mum is really understanding,she asks me to either sit inside and wait for them,or stay outside and wait...so i just waited...

Cant really remember whereelse we go le,we went back hotel again,and i sleep like a pig!!!Just a nap...=p Haha.It was so cold...so comfortable.

Last day:

Home sweet home.But it was a scary journey back.Actually can reach home by 5,but we reached by 10...y?My cousin-in-law who was leading the way lost his way...we wanted to go JB,but ended up in KL.cartoon lah...and i was so worried.At KL...he lost his way again...and we nearly cannot go back...Thank God eventually after turning here turning there,we found our way back...=D

It's a fruitful trip...'cos brought fruits home,ok,nvm,lame...haha..

Through this trip,realise kids love to stick with me.HAHA...no,that does not apply to all actually...okie,i'm crapping...better stop le...i need sleep...

Nitex...~ =)

*happy happy happy~

2005-03-05T22:21:00.000+08:00

Haha,faster blog...later all say my blog stuck at the Chinese New Year there.Haha~

i nearly one month nv blog...hahahaha.so F-A-S-T...haha

Many things happen during this period of time,like my bday oso,heehee.Then yesterday Wenxiang's bday oso.Happy Belated Birthday,Wenxiang!!!enjoyed ur cake today?Hehe.

Well,but i'm so so happy today...!!!God is great!God is just so wonderful!!!

Xin Miao accepted Christ!!!=D

How can we not be happy.Dot and I were praying so hard for her...and yes yes yes...God will never fail to answer our prayers...!Thank God...

and not long ago,Vannessa accepted Christ too.=D

Real happy to see them saved...

Praise the Lord...

Actually just want to say that...haha...

and yah,yesterday went career fair...I want to be a policewoman!!!AHHH!!!Haha,ok lah,know cannot make it lah...fine...hahahaha

=p go bathe le...i'm er...smelly...haha...=p

*chinese new year~

2005-02-11T17:15:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR~!!!

Haha,well,have been visiting relatives these days.I think Chinese New Year is really a good time to get to know relatives better and bring us closer together.Got the chance to chat with cousins that i've not chatted with for a very long time...i think it's nice lah.I like this kind of feeling,hehe.

But well,the first day of CNY is really funny.I stayed at home the whole day waiting for people to come and give me ang baos.Haha,no lah...=p It's 'cos every year my relatives will come my house on the first day of CNY mah.Haha.Then at first quite bored,but after my cousins come...Wah,we just go crazy.We don't go crazy 'cos we got many things to do,many fun things to play.It's 'cos we got NOTHING to do...hahaha.Then we keep saying those very lame things then keep laughing at our own jokes.My case is worse especially the part when i just keep laughing to myself,and i don't know the reason why.

Hahaha,then we start playing with my niece.My niece is so cute that everyone keep saying they want to play with her.She's the VIP...serious...haha.My cousins and aunts ask when my sis is coming,purpose is to see when my niece's going to come.Haha!She's really very cute and lovable i must say.She wear until very nice that day too.Then we got record her dancing,then took many photos of her too.It was just my niece's day...Haha...feel very happy just to see her.We don't mind spending all the time in my room just to play with her.Haha.

Oh yah,and my room's so messy,at first i didn't want anyone to enter my room.But my niece go in,and yes,my cousins go in too.Haha.Sherlynn noticed that i didn't pack my room.Paiseh leh!Haha,she say my room's really messy.=p.I'm just too lazy to pack lah.Haha.

And i finally got my x'mas present le.The necklace my cousin and i agreed to buy for each other.Becos we didn't hav time to meet,so we can only giv each other e X'mas present on CNY.delay until now,so funny.

I nv receive many ang baos,hai...oso dono why,haha,but nvm,hopefully can get more.CNY got 15days mah...frens,beware,haha.

Yesterday i went m'sia,quite bored lah,but i'm very happy when my parents say i'm obedient.Hehe,then evening come back SG go my uncle's house.Eat dinner le den go home go Osgodby's homework.Noe wat,Osgodby shaved his moustache.So funny,haha,he says his daughter wan him to shave.He really looks better,look more kind,hopefully his character will change to fit his looks now.He looks more fatherly now and not as fierce and stern,haha.

School's boring today,i keep dozing off during amaths lesson.Shudn't hav gone sch rite,my class 7 people nv go.Sure got some is self-declare leave one.Haha.

But after PE felt more energetic.Suan Tien crazy.CNY still make us run,mei liang xin,haha!But actually not too bad lah...i feel much better le.Last week got once i run a few steps only i start panting and so hard to breathe,serious,thank God now i'm alright le.

Mdm Quek gives us ang baos today.So happy,i haven open so i don't know how much's inside.But $2,$1 oso happy lor.She needs to giv so many students.She say this yr's her last yr teaching le,so she gives us ang baos,so sweet rite.Mdm Quek,even after we graduate,we'll visit u,not for ang baos,but realli to see her.

I now at my cousin's house,don't blog le.My sis got come and my niece's in the room sleeping,so scare i'll disturb...hehe...

Thank God for blessing me with all the ang baos...

*silly me~

2005-02-08T23:22:00.000+08:00

I'm so silly...

Well,feel much much better le...

In fact I'm happy...

Hee...i felt upset for many reasons,and now am happy for many reasons...

One very gd reason...why do i have to feel upset when God's always with me...

~Happy Chinese New Year to all~

*wad can i say~

2005-02-08T14:20:00.000+08:00

Wat can i say...

God knows what's going through my mind right now...

Not just one disappointment...

It's many...

Yes...many...

And i think i'm just the most naive person...

Chinese New Year is meant to be a happy festival...

But i'm not happy...

Gimme a break...

I hate to say this...

But the truth is...

Hai...

I'll never get the chance to say it...

And i'll never say it...

*asmond's bday~

2005-02-07T19:40:00.000+08:00

Woh!Before i start on anything,just wanna say ASMOND,HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!Everyone must wish him happy birthday ok?Hehe...=D Well,also want to say ESTHER,HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY!!!Hehe,Esther's birthday was yesterday actually.I'm sure she enjoyed herself yeah?=D

Well,i'm tired,i know i'm always saying i'm tired but anyway,I AM REALLY TIRED so what can i do?Haha,i need like 15hrs of sleep a day...but i can never sleep for 15hours.Weekdays now everytime at most can slp 6hrs only,haiyo...Then go school,so sick of school sometimes,especially when there are English and Literature on the same day.That would mean we have to see him more times.Don't want mention the teacher's name lah,haha.

Hmm...Saturday went to practise song with ShaoWei,haha,in the end decided to use guitar and not piano.I very scare tomorrow so many people i will scare lor,i'm serious.Then i'll get so nervous then it'll be bad.But the good thing is I'm not alone lah,so at least i think won't be so nervous on stage bah...=) Just pray that everything will turn out fine tomorrow,and that i won't get nervous.

After that went Edge.Pastor Jeremy Seaward's back!Haha,so funny lor...like him to be back.I keep laughing and laughing.Haha.Well this week i'm very very happy 'cos QinPei,WanLing,and WenXiang came!!!So glad to see them,especially WenXiang.Haha.

Then go WestMall lor,eat dinner and went to buy a bag for my mum.You know what's the bad thing,that person gave me the wrong colour.Actually i realise that the colour seems darker le,but when i ask everyone says it's the same colour,i thought is the lighting problem,but NO!It's the wrong colour,she gave me the one with a darker shade.But my mum don't mind,so it's ok lah.Though the colour not very nice,but she like the design,so thanks to Dot and WenXiang.=D

Sunday went for service.I went church at 8am,then was trying to help out.But really never help much lor.Somemore really like ai shou ai jiao like that lor,i'm not kidding.Hahaha,i know i lousy lah,haha.Then i was taught to do those conferencing stuffs.Wah,the sound thing can make me go crazy.I took so long to get it,have to like try all ways to try to make me understand like that.Hahaha.

Then went for evening service at Tampines Building.Hmmm...my first time there.It's quite big,hehe.I admit i wasn't really paying attention that day,i was so distracted,i was tempted to talk and talk non-stop.=p Haha.

Today just went to celebrate Asmond's bday.We ate Delifrance.Asmond,enjoyed it?Hehe,so Asmond,do you really have any secret keeping from us?uh-huh...?

Oh yah,and i have to buy Valentine's present for Gary...why of all people Gary...Aiyoh...haha.i tell you,on that day in the end everyone sure never buy any present de.Haha.

Actually I'm thinking of what to talk about for my public speaking's Show and Tell.Anyone with any good suggestions?Hehe.

I very hungry.Having reunion dinner later and tomorrow,'cos my brother is going overseas tomorrow,so we have to have a reunion dinner today also.I wonder why my brother is going overseas again.

Hmmm...13 more days to my bday,haha,is that good or bad...*scratches head*

And Canaan's bday coming also...Haha...dono whether shud buy prezzie...*scratches head*

This is so boring...

*i dream~

2005-02-03T20:24:00.000+08:00

Hehe,yesterday i visited Asmond's blog,so nice!And i suddenly feel like coming to blog too.Well,it's been quite some time since i blog le.It's either no time or too lazy.Haha.It's like nowadays i don't often blog lor...haha.

Well,firstly,i just want to say that last Sunday's morning service was just so nice.God is just SO WONDERFUL!!!=D The worship and the sermon was great,though erm...i forgot what's the sermon about le...hehe.

Right...i want to try to make this a little shorter to save time.Still got homework to rush and i need to study for Chinese and Emaths...oh crap...school is crap rite...Everybody agree?Haha,well,that's what students like to say lah,but when we grow up...Ahem...Different story...we'll love to go school,hehe.

Nothing really special happen these days.Haha,just that during this week's prayer meeting i was in the video room trying to make myself useful when actually i'm so useless.Haha,i siao one,clear up also like so fun.But i slack one lah...haha...also never do much...=p that's y i say useless...hahaha...so funny...haha...ok...nvm...

Erm...i'm like so easily irritated these days.Especially during lesson time...the one sitting beside me has got to tolerate me man...i'm so bad...so sorry.Hai...my temper kinda bad nowadays lah,dono wat's wrong,just get so irritated at times.And i cant stand my class...erm...hai...

Anyway,today we had the CNY rehearsal too.I'm the judge...so so happy lor...but i scare later xinmiao dey all win people say i bias.But the thing is...okie,i promise i wun be bias ok?BUT BUT...xinmiao dey all really very gd wat.Let's just see the performance on that day and judge ok...i zip my mouth now...

Then i'm singing I Dream,this is bad in a way,all the malay girls,the Taufik's fans will definitely hate me for singing the song until lik dat...man...haha...but don care le lah.Haha.Thanx to ShaoWei(is it spelt this way?)...Without him,i'll definitely be at a loss of how to find backgrd music.But thanx to Dot,Mingjie and Justin too...=D all the wonderful pianists...hee.And ok lah,Matt...jus dat i cant find u...haha.

Ahem...not short afterall...my aunt's comin to my house!She comes back from Japan to visit us again!Hehe...so happy...she's quite good to us one...although sometimes abit too naggy...hehe.=p

Sam and Zoe...so sweet.I miss them...i miss the show so so much...=(

*moody~

2005-01-29T22:25:00.000+08:00

I wan to blog!!!Don't stop me!!!Finally i can use com and is not too lazy to blog.

Well actually i really feel weird,but i cannot explain why.Yes,the feeling is weird,it's like as if...aiyah,i dono lah...hai...moody and very moody...moody moody moody!!!!u noe,lik got dark clouds around me dat kind?But i know i'll be fine 'cos God will always be there for me...

I want to talk about Triumph in the Skies again.Thursday i watched the last episode.The ending is very nice.Actually quite long ago,my uncle told me the ending already,at that time i hate it.It is just not the ending that i'm expecting,not the ending that i like.But when i watch it myself,the ending is very nice and happy.

Actually,the ending that i want last time is Sam to be with Isabelle,Zita and Ronald,Issac and Zoe.But well,ever since Vincent died,everything changed.I think Sam should really go with Zoe,and Isabelle is meant for Vincent even though he passed away.As for Issac,Zita and Ronald...Yes,they should just remain as friends since both are so good and Zita don't know how to choose.Hehe...

i give this show 5/5 stars...actually all in all,it's trying to say that fate brings people together.That's the theme for the story,"Fate".A quote from the show,"When you see the person,you just know that yes,he/she is the one...and that is fate."

I love this show too much,i'll miss it,i seriously will...i'm waiting for Triumph in the Skies 2 although i know it's very unlikely to have 2...but the show is really so so great...don end don end...!i wonder now 9pm will have what show...hai...

Back to school,hmmm...had the worst experience in school this week,but i don't want to talk about it.Everything is like gone chaos...hai...but it's better now.

Well,LJS come back le,y the army don wan to keep him longer.He is like disaster lor...hai...he come the school no peace le...Now i know i should appreciate Tigger...Tigger,we respect u...we love u...hehe

i'm slpy but i don wan to slp...ok...dat's stupid...haha...

i still cannot think of wat song to sing,Fri rehearsal le...somebody help?

Nitex people...

*comic boyz~

2005-01-22T23:03:00.000+08:00

Quite some time never blog again le...wat can i say?Feel really stressed dese days.But after service felt much better le.

Anyway,been under much stress from...i dono...haha.Okie,at least i noe it's studies lah.Imagine someone always not doing homework and let the homework pile up...e more homework piled up e more u don feel lik doing,promise myself to be a good girl and finish dem up but in e end,hai...wenxiang,u r right...i will break e promise...hai...

Yesterday was quite a bad day for me.I watch three episodes of Triumph in the Skies at one go,and it's like now the show is very sad lor...den i watch three at one go is like so so sad...really cannot digest,den i lie on bed,dazing...tinkin bout the show...it somewhat relates...does it?i dono...i feel so weird.Dat's wat happens when u're addicted to a show.The last time i felt this way was when i watch Tan Pan Zhuan Jia...something about police negotiators one,a HK drama again.It's been some time since i go real crazy over a HK drama.Ahem...

But thank God,He took away the unneccessary thoughts away from my mind,and *poof*,slept until so comfortably...hee...

Man...read newspaper today,Comic Boyz are disbanding.Suddenly many things get into my mind...all the memories.I still got the photo i took with them,hai...cant stop thinking of those times.Although it is really not good to go so crazy over them but i was once a crazy fan of them.So so crazy.Thinking of that,all i can say is i was still young and i don't know how to think,i'm still young now lah,but at least more sensible lah,know it's really a waste of time,but whatever it is,i still think it left good memories.It was a nice feeling when u hear ur favourite singer call out ur name...and ask whether u r e one who went for dis certain activity...and say he remember u...it's great...it is...and i will always remember the times,when you take e bottle of water i gave to you and wave it and say Byebye to me...i will always remember the times when we played game together,remember the times when u call out my name...when u cried...when u...hai...Chuan Yi,i will never forget you.Comic Boyz disband le,all those are going to be memories.They have been great,at least i tink so...i will buy their last album.It's sad to see them disband,it's sad...when i look at dat photo.

All the best to Comic Boyz..hope that each of them will still do well in their career...

~...Memories...~

*triumph in the skies~

2005-01-15T13:07:00.000+08:00

Wow...it's been quite some time since i came to blog le.Realise i've changed my blogskin,nvm if u all don like 'cos i myself love it.It's a blogskin on my favourite hk drama now,Triumph in the Skies,which is Chong Shang Yun Xiao.I'm so so crazy over this show now.It's really so so nice.The two person are two of the chracters in the show.I like that guy alot,he's Ron as Issac in the show.=D good-looking rite? That girl is Michelle as Zita in the show,and she's so so pretty.Hehe~

Because of the change of blogskin,it will be difficult to view the previous posts due to the colour,sorry...hehe.

Well actually it's getting boring nowadays 'cos yah,school starts and everything is like a routine again.Wake up,go school,school ends,eat lunch...blablabla...dat's wat school life is all about huh?hai...

But well,these days have been quite bad 'cos i'm sick.Haiyo,why always sick huh?I also don't know leh...hehe.But this time is 'cos too heaty,so sad,cannot eat those fried stuffs again...=(.

Then yesterday ate medicine and i think it's too strong for me,make me feel so light and giddy lor.Then in the end i stop taking one of the medicines...

Wednesday we went to send Jessie off.Take care Jessie~

When i reach the airport,i keep saying i want to be a pilot.Haha,all becos of the show Triumph in the Skies lah...now i hope that in future i can get a job that has got something to do with planes,like pilots,air stewardess or the people working in the airport...hehe.But know it's very difficult lah.And i want to travel!!!I want to go Rome!!!HAHAHA!

The show is like so sad now lor...Vincent met with a car accident le,and everyone is so sad...I watch the show until keep crying.Even my mum cried,hai...

The show is just so nice...hehe...

my fav. show...

the pilots...

the new pilots...

air stewardess...

Sam

Issac

Zita

Isabelle

HaoCong and LiHao

Sam and Zoe

*school starts~

2005-01-06T18:21:00.000+08:00

Haiyoyo...5 days no blog,a very simple reason for this...school started le.Hai...to me,it's not a nice thing,wonder why i hate school so much especially from today onwards!!!

Well,jux to update,2nd Jan went for service,got corporate combined service at Singapore Indoor,den evening service is about "Overcoming Our Fears"...

Then 3rd Jan,Monday...very fun!!!Haha,'cos went to Seoul Garden!So funny lor,we play zhong ji mi ma,den lose one must eat those funny funny food,it's meant to be punishment.Got many types of punishment,i always get those very nice one,like Char Siew Chicken(yawns...i noe u people are jealous),haha...then a sprite+grape+cherryade+tom yum drink,not bad leh...i like!=D den got ice-cream which is supposed to be nice,but i feel very tired of it,dono y.And then got the Ebiko sushi...other punishments got crabsticks which Joash ate more than 10(he did not like it anyway,haha),then got veggie,purposely aim at Fabian one,and he really got it!!!HAHAHA!i was so happy when he got dat punishment!hehe.Then got many more i cant really remember,Jessie oso kena some punishments.Everyone got chance lah,hehe.Then the last punishment was very very nice,all the drinks mix together,taste so nice lor!I wan to drink again!!!=D

That day is crazy also,once again,i go crazy and say stupid things do stupid stuffs lah,haha,but later when we are going back le,i tired until shut off.Three stages of tiredness for me,when i very tired,i will crap alot,when i very very tired,i'll crap alot and laugh to myself,when i very very very tired,then i'll shut off le.Haha!

Then 4th Jan went for prayer meeting.Hehe,two weekdays go home late i thought my dad will scold,but he never!!!=D 'cos they mood very good,my mood very good also!'Cos got new TV!!!So nice lor!!!I love it...big big then watch TV so shiok!It's even better when sing karaoke lor!I love it so much!!!hehehe.

5th Jan,i was really tired,'cos i knocked out le.I go home watch tv,my mum recorded Chong Shang Yun Xiao for me 'cos i missed quite 3 episodes.My fav. show leh,but luckily my mum got record for me,=D.Den i watch until cry,so sad lor...but after that i fell asleep and nearly forgot to do something which i agreed to help do!!!Haha,i like pig like that...=p

Today's Wanling's bday...HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!hehe...den went to eat Pizza Hut,actually cant eat heaty food but nvm lah,don care le.It was fun,i laugh like crazy,dono y become like crazy person again.But today my mood very bad,sorry leh Wenxiang...=(

Anyway school starts and life becoms more boring le.Especially when today the discipline committee say bout school rules,and how they r goin to make sure we obey the rules,i was so angry.Com'on lah...no fighting,of course,dat's obvious.Mux tuck in shirt...it's ok...socks mux be 5cm above shoe,dis is gettin abit stupid,we'll look dumb!Mus wear full U to sch even during holidays,last time can wear half U lor!And worst of all,worst worst!!!HAVE TO BRING BACK BOOKS HOME EVERYDAY!!!It's like so heavy.Are they mad or wat!!!!Everyone's so angry wif this,we're going to write petition to them.They are like...ahem...ridiculous!!!!Argh...

Oops...that's too long...stop le...hehe...

*happy new year~

2005-01-01T23:37:00.000+08:00

Firstly...HAPPY NEW YEAR TO EVERYONE!!!Hehe...

Asmond ask y i so long nv come blog,i had better come and blog already,haha.

Okiex,this is fun...i like to see the date 1.1.2005.Hee...nice rite.Okiex lah,dat's crap.Anyway,yesterday i went for watchnight service at the Sembawang building.Before that went to play badminton first.So funny,because i don't know how to play,like so funny like that.Dorothy try to teach,but erm...in a way,not very successful lah hor,haha,but nvm lah,thanx Dot...=) In the end Declan teach lor,wah...surprise leh,he succeeded leh!HAHA~ it's like so funny,realise he is like so patient.If i teach someone like me...i can vomit blood i tell u,haha.

Anyway,thanx Dec...=) Then got play wif Fabian,got more practise then more used to it already.So thank Fabian too...=)

Then went for watchnight lor,u noe wat's so fun about it?VFC IDOL~!HAHAHA!PAUL LIM,PAUL LIM,PAUL LIM!!!hahaha...i crazy already.=p Dono why i so happy when he wins also,like as if i win like that.haha,maybe 'cos i vote for him.He very funny lor,the michael jackson one,so entertaining and creative,hehe!But others oso not bad...=D

After watchnight went for the youth activity.At first we stayed at Sembawang there play game,we play Whacko,den play Polar Bear,7up...blablabla...alot lah...den went to Mustafa play game,a shopping game.Then to Sembawang there play the drinking and flour game.So funny lor the drinking game,the guys can really drink alot.Then the flour game is disgusting...make our teeth so uncomfortable.Haha,then we went to eat and then go back Yishun building den GO HOME!!!hehe.

Very tiring lah yesterday,at least for me lah,then reach home lik 7.45am lik dat.i 8am go sleep,den wake up at like 5.45pm.Haha,the time like so funny.But got people sleep more than me hor!HAHA...

Then i went out for dinner at night then go buy shirt.My parents they all go malaysia no one cook dinner...='( hehehe...dat's about all...once again,happy new year~

*smelly paint~

2004-12-29T18:06:00.000+08:00

Woh...my parents just painted my brother's room,so smelly here now...

Come and blog blog,'cos quite bored now also,don't ask me where i go these days.So sad lor,i never go anywhere,sick girl taking good rest at home.Yesterday wanted to go VFC,but it was soooo cold i seriously don't dare to go out,at home already want to become frozen already,go out even worse.Hehe,so stay at home,hide myself under blanket...but i cant hide under it for long lah,so boring...hehe.

I quite happy today leh actually,'cos i secured myself from detention.=D I can never imagine myself going for detention,or getting scolded by Mr. Osgodby,it'll be a nightmare!!!Imagine Osgodby shouting into my face,can cry man...he's so so fierce!I really hope next yr he's not our english teacher.He will sure get very pissed off with my english,then you see next time he don't like my literature already.Haha~

Anyway,i finished literature today under force!!Haha,thanx for forcing me to do and giving me the time limit,and thanx for the book reviews!!!=D

So happy...But i still got 3 more chinese jian bao,1 more research on the World War 1...and guess what,i haven read the 2 chinese books.Hey,suddenly realise so many things haven do again.

Still need to type out lit for Matt...aren't you a troublesome boy???HAHAHA...

Ok lah~stop crapping already.

By the way,YeeYee,if you are reading this,tell me when you want to meet and exchange the presents ok.SMS me...thankiex...=)

I dream~

I can run~

Like the wind~

And be strong~

When my heart just wants to give in~

I dream~

I can be~

The Hero that's in me~

When i dream~

I dream~

*steamboat~

2004-12-28T11:31:00.000+08:00

Haiyo...i start coughing already...=(

Yesterday went home too late to blog already so come to blog now.My blog's song is really so nice...Hai...Don't know when will Sylvester release his album leh...

Alright,well,yesterday went for steamboat,but i'm very sorry 'cos i never meet them on time.They are meeting at 4pm at Bt Batok,but i go to Jocelyn's house straight at bout like 6pm like that.Guess why...

Hahaha...'cos i want to complete one of my homework first.=p C'mon lah...spare a thought for me lor,u all finish so much already i like so poor thing still got so many homework.Haha...self-pity.

Yesterday's steamboat was fun.The fun thing is not because of the steamboat itself and the food,it's about the gathering.We just sit together,and talk talk talk,laugh laugh laugh...i choked many times you know.All because of Gerald lah,keep doing stupid things,and imitating Weijie's trembling hand.'Cos Weijie got low blood pressure,so when he take chopsticks or whatever things,you can see his hand tremble...hehehe.But it's not his fault lah.=p

We never finish alot of food leh,so sorry leh Auntie...hehe,i can eat more one,really,but laugh too much,tired already really don't feel like eating.

Then we went in to Jocelyn's room,and started chatting.Asmond got something keeping from us for sure,but we don't seem to be able to guess what is it.We guessed,but don't know whether it's true anot.Asmond,if you don't tell me,i force you to say it out at my blog here.Or i'll write in my blog what we guessed hor!!*oops...like a threat like that...haha*

Then we got play prank call also,but not as fun.The most fun one is the one Weijie pretend to be Wanling to scold a guy who likes Wanling...

Then we want play Game of Life again but no time,so went home lor.We wait for bus for soooo long.

School's reopening...suddenly feel that time really flies~

I love this holidays...i will never forget this holidays...=)

All the stuffs that happen this year are so unforgettable.Thanks for all those who gave me these memories...=)

I'm getting emotional suddenly...Hehe...Enjoy the song people,it's very meaningful...

*x'mas...!

2004-12-26T23:16:00.000+08:00

Er...the last time i came to blog is 21st,today 26th already,5 days nv blog,miss me anot?Hee...enuff of such craps...=p

okiex,er,tinkin of jux writing wat happen dis few days lor...start wif 23rd,'cos i cant remember wat i did on 22nd lah,hehe.

23rd went to watch Kung Fu Hustle.One word..."Funny"!!!Go watch if you all haven watch ok.It's so nice,well,to me it's very funny lah,dono funny for u all anot.'Cos everything to me also funny like that so don't know whether dat movie will be nice for u all.=)

Then bought present for my niece,one big dog softtoy...so nice!!!I,myself like it so much,hai,but too bad that present is for her not for me...=(

24th...X'MAS EVE!!!Ok...er...this is fun.In the day went to Westmall with XinMiao to purchase some presents,den bought a present for gifts exchange.Then 3.30pm meet Brian at Bt Batok then go Aunty Sandy's house,then had quite alot of fun.Hehe.Played Whacko,and the Polar Bear game.So funny,i play until like crazy woman.Then the Polar Bear game so fun,but they keep saying i'm the polar bear who killed the hunters,do i have that guilty look...c'mon lor,no!and i don look like a murderer or a bear...!=p

Then i went my sis's house for family dinner.Reach there bout 7,dinner start like at 8.My niece is so cute when she open up the presents,and she especially love the one i buy for her.=D

Then leave at like 10.45,went to Jocelyn's house for X'mad countdown.Thanx Gerald for all the presents.We played prank call on many people dat day,so fun!HAHAHA!And we played Game of Life...wah,dat board game realli great!Still can get married one!

Next day tired like crazy,X'mas day...but guess wat!I'M SICK!!!

Can't believe it...and i'm very sick lor yesterday!No kidding ok...

Then i never go anywhere leh,after going BPP eat with Asmond dey all and buy presents,i go home felt sick,den i slp,den wake up,wait for dinner which is at like 9 or 10.den after dat,cant tahan slp already...

Today went for service...nice...=)

But actually i really tired,and i'm sick...but but...i seem to feel so so much better!

Thank God for healing me!

And yah,morning service was ok,then we after that go eat already go back VFC dey say wan jam...haha...play until quite messy leh...but very funny...=)

Then evening service tired already,but i still can take it lah...

Evening service...talked about Fears...Fear of other gods,Fear of people,Fear of majority,Fear of death,Fear of lack of finance,Fear of not being in control,Fear of overwhelming situation...

In order to overcome our fears,we gotta face our fears...people,get it?

And then went Grace's birthday party,happy birthday Grace!

Merry Christmas and thanx for the presents!!!er...and the Sprite Ice huh...thanx...haha...

And i just want to say...Jesus,i love you...

*hahaha`

2004-12-21T22:29:00.000+08:00

This is funny...how come i cannot come to the blogger website with Internet Explorer but can come here with Netscape...ahem...funny.

Ok,er...today ar,guess what's the first place i went after i wake up.CLINIC!!!
Aiyoh,i wake up very early leh,i wanted to do homework,finally i have the mood to do homework,but i wake up my throat really very pain,cannot take it already,and then my mum tell me see doctor lor.
Hey,the doctor hor,very slow one leh,at first the person tell me i jux need to wait for half an hour,in the end i wait for 1 hr or more lor!!!COMPLAIN!!!Haha,but luckily i got mag read,i bought LIME,cover is Taufik.Got alot of SG idols stuffs to read,so very nice.=D
Then doctor say i caught a cold,that's y will backache oso.Then he gimme sore throat,bodyache and running nose medicine lor.

The medicine really xian dan,haha,mini xian dan.I eat already immediately drowsy one leh,i mean it!!It's immediate!Then i went to sleep of course,man,wat bout homework?!?
Wake up already my throat felt so much better,told u it's xian dan.Then do homework lor,in the end only finish one Social Studies Source Based.Stupid,i write very long leh,crap...

Then went VFC,at first meet at CCK den i late.Haha...y...?'Cos i'm Ann lor.Haha,but it's 'cos my dad buy food for me,i hafta finish den go out,den late.
Then reach VFC already,mic test again and stuffs,haha.I sore throat lik no sore throat lik dat.Still quite normal.But my back really aches suddenly,like now...pain lah.
I brought 2 bottles of water today,and plus the liang cha is 3 bottles.Thanx for the liang cha...=).
I remembered what they said 'bout the 'new criteria' for Poly students...it's stupid!HAHAHA!

After prayer meeting go Matt's house giv him liang cha also.He sore eyes,dono wat yellow yellow thing,i don understand oso,but jux take care ok...don play too much com lah!

Then went home,nv miss much of the show.I only miss like 5 minutes,so it was great!=D Thanx!

*VFC~

2004-12-19T23:20:00.000+08:00

Right,here i am again,hehe,hope i won't blog too long this time.

Went to VFC today for morning and evening services.

Well...

"Love everyone the way you love yourself."

People,get this?

Alright...after morning service went to eat with Esther,Qiu Xia and BaoYing(izzit spelt this way) at Lot1?Er...yah,then halfway eating saw a msg dat made me so so worried,i actually don't dare to go back VFC one,but in the end i went back lah of course,and well,got to know what happen.I thought it wasn't as serious,but i still feel very very very guilty for causing trouble.Was apologising so much,and i think i really worry things too much,in the end i realise like no need worry until like that one actually,i'm glad that by the evening service,all those worries are gone,thank God...

Yah,after lunch went Colleen's house watch 13 Going On 30.It's actually very funny,but 'cos dat time mood quite bad,so thought it was fine only.Then i went off earlier with Qiu Xia and didn't finish the movie.Qiu Xia need to go earlier for duty.

Evening service was nice lah,just that i really very tired,my eyes very dry,then i put eyedrop oso no help,and it was so cold,my teeth were chattering lor.Hai,forget to bring sweater,and no sweater to borrow from.Ahem...Matt,get it?Haha...

Well,Matt's sick today,poor thing right,everyone quick tell him to take care.Haha~

Oh yah,forget to say sorry to Fabian's dad.I say here ok?Hehe,sorry for making so much noise in the car...i'm really sorry...

Ok,wait,will he read this?

Er...but it's better to say it out anyway...

That's all for today...=)

*edge~

2004-12-18T23:01:00.000+08:00

I've been trying and trying to blog,but my com keep shutting itself off,i feel like throwing it out of the window man...

Anyway,today is saturday...so it's a day for...EDGE!Hehe~

Well,today's Edge was great,so touched by God.Actually Edge is great every week lah,hehe,i always use only one word to describe it one...and that's..."Great!"...Hahaha~

Today Asmond and Jerome came along with us also.Asmond quite enjoyed it yeah?=) Must come again hor...heehee.

After Edge we went to eat at BK lor...don't ask me why BK again,i also don't know.And i'm the slowest again...especially when Brian's around,keep making people laugh,laugh until cannot eat.Haha,he eat hor...still got fast forward and rewind.fast forward he'll eat very fast,rewind he'll start trying to vomit out the food...ewww...

Haha,warning:don't keep with Brian...=p

Dotdot went off today already,let's pray for her safety ok?=) I'll miss her...

Seriously not in mood to blog lah.Tired and then just now the com so many prob,i really irritated already,so don't blog already lah,hai...so what more can i say?

Byebye...~Hahaha~

*neoprint~

2004-12-17T13:05:00.000+08:00

Haha...top:me,asmond,dot...bottom:weijie and wenxiang...

Hahaha...the stuffs on our heads are funny...especially the shit on asmond's...=p

*town~

2004-12-16T20:49:00.000+08:00

Hey hey...many people complain my blog's too long,so i limit myself now with 5 mins to finish today's one ok?See how much i can write...

Okiex...went town with Dot,Asmond,Wenxiang and Weijie...Well,it's so fun 'cos i never go out with them for quite some time already leh.And then it's like today is the first time i see Weijie dis holiday...!

We went to Lucky Plaza McDonald find Olivia,she's working there,haha,and guess what,when i go and order food,i actually asked her,"Hey,how much you earn here huh?"...and she was like stunned...then she never answer me lah,answer me dere like so funny lik dat.Haha,wat a stupid question i ask anyway.

Then at Mac...we sat and talk then joke until very loud,I'm sorry Dot,i think we made so much noise we irritated u yeah?Sorry...=)

But i think today damn funny oso,'cos got Asmond lah!He keep saying those lame things and well,his actions and face expressions are real real funny...

I sit between Weijie and Asmond like so dangerous,'cos they two always fight one,i may just become a victim...haha.

Then went to walk walk,Dot bought a shirt at Flash Splash,and Weijie saw a Quiksilver slippers that he wanted to buy but he not enough money and keep begging Asmond to lend him $4,Asmond at first don wan,but in the end he too kind lah,he really lend him.Hehe.Aiyah,should have really made Weijie make a fool of himself at the escalator there first rite?

DotDot left early oso,so she wasn't there with us,she go Pheonix Hotel there meet her family...=D

Then we all go Yoshinoya eat and sat there so long to talk...talk until very fun leh...jux keep crapping rite?=)

Then i bought a shirt at Wisma S&K...i noe i noe...wan ask me why i always buy shirt there rite?i oso dono,Asmond like the shirt there too lah.

People,go Clementi there buy,all the jeans there very cheap,Dot and Asmond say one...

Hehe,ok...it's good to gimme time limit,i wan go watch tv le...izzit still long?If yes cant blame,i type fast?=p

*prayer meeting~

2004-12-15T10:05:00.000+08:00

Noe wat...i realise i can only blog in the morning,my brother always have to work wif the com at night,hai...

Well,anyway,yesterday supposed to have class outing one,but i never go,sorry guys,'cos i'm really too tired for it,imagine i actually slept until 1pm.Really too tired,need to restore my energy,if i go sentosa,i still have to wake up very early,so i can't make it.Sorry...but i hope they enjoyed anyway,but i heard very few people go only.

Then i wake up already was asked if i wan go church for prayer meeting,so i go lor.Hehe,my energy's back oso,of course can go.'Cos i tot start at 7 no need so early go,then i slacked at home in the day,use com awhile,watch tv,then do homework,then suddenly Fabian ask wan go earlier anot,so i meet him first,but guess wat,5pm leh!!!

Haha,then i late by 3 mins he still complain,3 mins only!Haha!

Anyway,i damn happy 'cos yesterday i'm the first to step in VFC!Heehee...Fabian was 2nd anyway,ok,dat's lame...

Erm...yah,den i go there,Fabian go check the power switch thing,stupid lor,the switch is like supposed to be easy to find one,then we find until lik so difficult lik dat,he still got himself dirty with dust,haha,stupid.=p

Haha,the mic test was funny,i feel so stupid just counting from 1 to 20 with the mic,like fool like dat rite?=)

But i admit i'm seriously not alright yesterday,haha,i laugh non-stop!!!I don't know why oso,all started when i went to eat with Fabian.I dono why lah,just started laughing non-stop,he tok i laugh,nv tok oso laugh,scary,like got laughing gas inside like that.Then because he played badminton the previous day then his hands started trembling,damn funny lor,i see the hand tremble i laugh non-stop.

Then the Sprite Ice thing...stupid lah,let me tell u all a joke behind this...

The night before last night,i went to eat wif Fabian and his family remember?Then i ordered Sprite Ice,then his mum ask wat's the difference between Sprite and Sprite Ice,and he gave this stupid explanation,"You order Sprite Ice,they'll give u a can of Sprite Ice and a cup WITH ice in it,when you order Sprite,they'll give you a can of Sprite and a cup WITHOUT ice in it."

Stupid rite?i laugh like crazy lor,then yesterday i ordered Sprite,he ask i order plain water izzit,then i laugh and say is Sprite,then he ask,"oh...Sprite Ice ar?" I tot of the joke and i laugh until can die lik dat.HAHAHA!u see i next time scare of Sprite Ice.

Ok,went back to VFC after eating at like 6.45pm.Haha,we eat like 45 minutes for goodness,'cos i eat very slow lah.=p

Then went back,Joy came and she started asking me if i got go Kopitiam,she say i got Kopitiam smell,WHAT THE...!

Sit inside lah,say wan watch TV,in the end oso nv get to watch,then i got that Kopitiam smell,stupid guy!Haha,ok lah,i stop scolding already,have been like scolding stupid,idiot and fool the whole day yesterday.

Matthew came late,then he suddenly stand behind me scare me sia.But i realise one thing,Matthew can be Mr. Darlie...his teeth very nice rite?=D

We did many prayers lor,then finish already at first wan go home watch TV,but Matt say wan eat then accompany him,haha,but in the end,me and Fabian miss the show say is his fault.Yah lah,Matt!Ur fault lah...eat eat eat...haha...

Ok lah,I'm kidding...=p

By the way,yesterday i nv go jam...sorry guys,'cos i was in church,go home quite late already oso,sorry...

*saved~

2004-12-14T14:04:00.000+08:00

Well,i think i won't try to blog too long,later still need to do homework then go church.

Hmmm,saw the tag-board,many are concern 'bout me accepting Christ,i've accepted already,no regrets about it.=)

Sunday went to church,VFC,Victory Family Centre at CCK,it's very near my school leh,hehe,but i still stupid don't know how to go need Matt to take me there,haha.Man,i know i'm bad at road direction,=p.

Well,that day was great too.Though the morning and evening service is like more bored than youth service,but i think it's ok lah.=) Just that now i don't know whether i should go VFC,or go to the church my sis go.My sis says if i wan,i can go to the church she goes to take a look.This week she going to the Suntec one,the rock don't know what one.Hehe~

Then one funny thing that happen on Sunday is during the evening service,i don't understand the talk,then when the crowd laughs,i seriously don't catch the joke.Haha,then i really cannot take it already,'cos i falling asleep,then i'm like "Oh God...",then Esther Tan started laughing.That's when the laughing mood starts to come about,i don't know why i suddenly laugh and Esther Tan and Esther "what's her surname?" started laughing too.Then the crowd laughs at a joke,then i don't catch it again,so i laugh non-stop of my stupidity.HAHAHA,everyone was like turning around and ask why we are laughing,and realise we are laughing at nothing.Then Esther Tan says next time the crowd starts laughing,we just laugh,let them know that we're really trying hard to catch what he's saying.Hehe.I'll just laugh when Esther Tan laugh anyway,haha.

Then after that went to eat with Fabian and his family,felt odd at first,Matt lah!don wan accompany me...haha.But anyway,Fabian's family is friendly so it was ok.=)

Yesterday went to jam with Vance,Canaan,Brian and his brother,it was ok,but i'm sorry guys,i was really very tired yesterday,i nearly fell asleep at his house somemore.

But actually yesterday i not satisfied,not because of you guys lah don't worry,it's 'cos i not satisfied with myself,sing until so not nice,i quite pissed with myself actually.

Then i remember the part when the security tells us to get the visitor pass by exchanging it with our I.C.Funny like siao,Brian and Canaan really very quick-minded,i tell you,if i'm the security,i will be real pissed.But to me lah,everything is like so funny.Haha...

Ok,that's all,later still have to go church earlier.

`The Edge~

2004-12-11T22:15:00.000+08:00

YoHo people~!I just reach home and i faster come and blog already.'Cos I'm so excited to share what happen today!Hee~

Alright,firstly,i must must thank Matthew and Dot for bringing me to The Edge!

Ok,now i'll start talking 'bout today.We went Edge today lah,but today was just so so great,it's so different from the previous weeks.Alright,leave out the part that Dorothy isn't here,i thought Edge will be even more great today if she's here,hehe.
Well,today the Mr. Incredible came!Haha,actually is the pastor lah,i can't remember his name,i can only remember him as Mr. Incredible 'cos he really looks so so much like Mr. Incredible.Man,i wonder if the person who draw the Incredibles family actually used him as a model.AHHH!!!The pastor is so CUTE~~!!!!!I mean it!It's like seeing Mr. Incredible giving talk!
But sadly,he's going off this wednesday already,and he'll not come back soon.Matt,are you sad?Don't say you're not,i kind of feel sad too leh.But hey Matt,why didn't you cry today!I expected you to be very sad just like when you were 10...=) Heehee~

Anyway,today's Edge just give me a total different feeling.I don't know how to explain.Today is the first time i really sing out loud to God,just to God,and i really meant what i sing.Everyone knows I'm actually a free-thinker,but after today,I'm really convinced that God is present,that God is there for us,believe the Holy Spirit that's in each and every one of us,allow God to lead me the way.

Even XinMiao today was telling me,today's Edge was really special.Then realise we both had the same feeling,though we both thought that we ourselves were the only ones who felt this way.The feeling is just so special.

Matthew asked about whether i want to accept Christ,you noe what,that's wat i thought of too.I was thinking of committing to Christianity,but you know,it's not easy to get through my parents that part,and after what Vance told me,i don't know,there's this contradiction in my mind,and make me feel that whether i am really ready to accept Him.The contradiction here is,i'm thinking "Yes,i believe in Jesus Christ",but am i ready for it...er....funny why i'm feeling this way.Is it 'cos i'm not ready?I still have my parents to go through,though it's really 'bout me and God.And guess what,i realise,i felt God's presence today...!I feel so happy!!!AHHH!!!

Well,after talking for some time with Matt and Vance,i'm ready for it...go and ask my parents later already...

sick and tired...

2004-12-10T14:23:00.000+08:00

I feel very sick and tired of always having to find things worthwhile to do,sick and tired of hoping that every minute and seconds are not wasted,oh crap,tell me what is going on,i feel so lost...

I suddenly feel like coming to blog,i'll go find something else to do after blogging.

Anyway,yesterday i went to Ten Dollars Club Family Karaoke there to sing,quite far away,it's at Chinatown there but i think it's worth going 'cos the songs are really new,it's cheap,really $10 per person,no +++ charge,and still got free shark's fin to eat,not bad huh?I enjoyed myself alot,singing and singing,singing and singing,sing my heart out.

After that i went to buy 4 VCDs...they are really cheap,but it's 'cos the discs come from China one.Can find one day and sing karaoke at home again,since got new songs now already.

I remembered some thing that happened a few days ago.It just keep flashing back in my mind.He started a MSN conversation with me,it seems like a long time since he did that,he said "Hello...hey how are you?"

Hai,first thing that got into my mind was,"Why did you ask me that,I hate people asking me that..."

But,i just replied,"bad..."

And obviously he would ask why,but well,i changed the topic,how am i suppose to tell him it's 'cos i miss him badly?A big NO NO...i will never say that...NEVER!

Argh...man...it hurts...

"Tell him...

Tell him that the sun and moon rise in his eyes,

reach out to him.

And whisper...

Whisper words so soft and sweet.

Hold him close to feel his heartbeat,

love will be the gift you give yourself..."

No no...i can't do it...

~nv go out...hehe~

2004-12-07T21:54:00.000+08:00

Woah...i never go out for two days already,is that considered good or bad?Haha,actually not bad lah,can take a rest,but i won't lock myself in the house for the rest of the week so no needa worry,haha~

Just now watched my current favourite show Chong Shang Yun Xiao.For those who got subscribe SCV Channel 55,must watch!It's a must,'cos you'll never want to miss the show.Just the first three episodes already and it's so nice!It's so romantic,especially when Yichen and Yishan were in Rome.Hai,but it's really sad that they have this stupid misunderstanding between them and now Yishan is with that stupid Yunzhi.What the hell~
Somemore it's like Yunzhi is the bad guy and not Yichen lor...!!
Hai...then Yichen gave the doll to Zoe...Yishan is looking for that doll leh.YICHEN AND YISHAN ARE MEANT TO BE TOGETHER!!!
Stop interrupting them lah stupid Yunzhi!!!
Okok,i noe it's boring to hear me say all these things for those who never watch this show.So go watch it!It's damn nice!Really!

Hey people,i went to the Singapore Idol forum just now and saw this survey on whether people think that Olinda is a sore loser.
I see already,suddenly many things flash back into my mind,all the things she said about wanting to vote for Taufik and stuffs,and saying that there's no need for her to vote for Sylvester 'cos he has already got many teenage girls voting for him.I suddenly feel that to a certain extent,she really is a sore loser.Or i should say,she seems to think too highly of herself that she thinks she could have been in the Top2,but in the end when she never get into Top2,she don't feel really good.
I don't blame her for voting Taufik,but announcing to the whole Singapore how close she and Taufik is and how she would cast like 650 votes for him,that really pissed me off.
I mean,to a certain extent,it reflected her attitude lah,u noe wat i mean?It's like,somehow,she don't admit defeat.She herself said that she don't feel so bad 'cos she knows this is a popularity contest and not a talent contest,she's like making it so clear that she thinks she is more talented than Sly.Aiyoh,i think no ren yuan really no use lor.You can't be an idol when really many people don't like you yeah?
Ok,i admit her vocals are good,it's strong,but it's good to be humble yeah?It's kinda bad if you lost a competition,and after that say until like you've lost to someone whom you shouldn't have lost to.Sly and her are both fellow contestants what,i mean,it's good to show some respect to each other.

But,no offence to those who like Olinda,this is just my opinion,maybe you all will say 'cos i'm a Sly fan that's why i'm pissed off by what Olinda says,but i think it's true what,i think it has reflected her bad attitude.
Initially i think she's ok,but erm...yah,after she lost,all the things she say have really pissed me off.But anyway,it's over lah...so don't bother already

Woh...off to do some A-maths...

new blogskin...

2004-12-06T16:11:00.000+08:00

It's been quite some time since i came to blog already.Every night come back,my brother's using the computer so i can't use,well,he has work to do so i can't just snatch the com away from him yeah?

Firstly,realise my blogskin has changed?Haha,'cos i've been "receiving complains" that my entry space is very small and the Sly pic behind the entry space made it very difficult for people to read my entries so i changed to this one.Actually,the new blogskin that i downloaded look totally different from how my blogskin look like now 'cos i edited many things,edit until my blog becomes a fanatic one again.Haha~

Alright,what have I been doing these days?Let me think...

Friday I went to Causeway Point to watch The Incredibles with WenXiang.That movie is really so so cute.It's not like the normal cartoon that we always watch.I guess Incredibles is one cartoon that both children and adults enjoy.It's thrilling,it's funny,it's sweet,it's lovely and it's terrific!I love the Incredibles family and not to forget,i love Frozone too!When i tell people i like Frozone,they are like,"Huh,why?He's so extra..."
But i just think he's cool lah!=)
Then after the movie i went to do homework with Xiang.Finished one emaths paper1,hai...i've still got alot of homework to do leh,sian...~
At night i went to meet a friend for dinner.Then chatted for quite long and i went home at bout 10something.After i went home and after a shower,i watched Ocean's 11 with my family...I very happy lor,'cos finally can watch a movie with my brother.Hehe,do i sound silly?=p But anyway,Ocean's 11 is very nice and funny,it's a perfect movie 'cos Brad Pitt is one of the casts.Brad Pitt is so good-looking lor,don't know why my brother prefer George Clooney instead.Haha.

Have you been to the Edge?Haha...(-_-")
Ok lah,Saturday i went Edge, i 2 weeks never go already so i feel bad mah...Hehe.I never go because I went to see Sylvester then the other week is because i went for camp,hahax.
Before Edge i went to meet Dorothy first to do some homework,but guess what,i did only like 1 maths question and Dot only managed to write one Christmas card for Fabian.Haha,we keep gossipping and never do work.=p I think it's 'cos i've not met Dorothy for a long time already so i keep talking non-stop to her.Haha,no choice lah,i miss her mah...
Last Saturday's Edge was ok only to me,'cos another pastor came mah,then he talk abit boring.He's an Indian,and his accent abit funny then make me feel like laughing at his accent lor.I don't laugh at his jokes lah,hehe,his jokes too lame already.I prefer the pervious pastor...Eh...what's his name again ar?Er...haha,nevermind.

Now i'll talk bout what i did yesterday...hmm...it's a great day for me!Guess where i went?I went Zoo!!!I simply love the zoo!
Haha,i went with my sis and bro-in-law's family.
It's really a great trip lah,'cos i kinda miss the white tigers and i got to meet them again!=D They are still as pretty and as handsome as ever!We saw them mate somemore,my brother-in-law really lucky,he shot a nice photo of them mating.=) Anyway,i took a pic with them too,but of course i'm outside the enclosure lah,if i go in they'd have eaten me up already.I just love the white tigers!!!AHHH!!!They are so nice!!!My sis says i got gd taste 'cos i love white tigers...=p
Of course the zoo not only have white tigers lah,haha,we saw many different types of monkeys also,and my sis and i are sick of monkeys now.Haha,'cos it's always monkeys and monkeys everywhere.Got what baboon,chimpanzee,orang utan,probistics monkey,mandrill blablabla...haha,we feel so sick already lah,only until we reach the Cats Country then we felt better.'Cos the big cats are so so pretty ya noe?i don't like small cats but i love big cats,white tiger is also part of cat family anyway.
Oh yah,i was so pek cek yesterday when my bro-in-law's sis's two sons called me Auntie!Then i quickly pretend never hear.I know they call my sis Auntie Belle,but i'm not as old as my sis yeah?They should call me JieJie mah...haha,nvm...pardon them...they are still young.=p
Then i went back to my sis's house and after dinner,my dad drive me to Dot's house there 'cos I tell Dorothy to help me buy Incredibles T-shirt,it's nice leh!Thanks Dot!Then after that go SerXing's house to get the sec4 books,thanx to serxing too!=)

Oh yah people,heard of the news that there won't be any more World Idol yeah?Haix...it's a sad thing for Taufik.But anyway,if you all realise,Sly somewhat resembles Clay Aiken.They both came back from WildCard and they both aren't the real winners of the competition but they will be bigger in the music industry.Woh...they are both so great!!!=D

That's all,Folks!

2004-12-02T22:23:00.000+08:00

This is the fan that we got free when we buy 8Days at the Indoor yesterday.Nice rite?Sly Rocks!

Singapore idol~Taufik,but Sylvester Sim is gonna be my idol always.

2004-12-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

Yo people!
I was wondering whether there will be people trying to console me after the result of the Singapore Idol is announced,and indeed i got some people telling me..."Hey Ann...don't be sad k?"
For those who don't know,our first ever Singapore Idol is one by the name of Taufik Batisah.=) Hey people,cheer for him,must feel proud that we have him as a Singapore Idol.We have to admit that Taufik really sing very well and indeed his performances are soulful.But to me,and i think to many people out there also,we have two Singapore Idols deep in our heart,other than the real one who's Taufik,the other one's gotta be Sly.I seriously think he did well yesterday.
I was at the Indoor Stadium yesterday,and indeed,they sound different at the stadium and on TV.My mum recorded the Final Showdown for me too but I haven't watched it,i don't know how Sly sounds like on TV when he sang It's My Life but honestly and truly,he sounded good at the Indoor.He sang the song so naturally and seeing the way he perform on that big stage,i think he is born to be a performer.And i am convinced that he is my idol!When he sings that song,it's like i feel so high!I know some will say it's because of the song itself that makes me feel high,but i wanna say,you need a good performer to be able to deliver the song well.Sly is definitely a good performer.
Sly sang An Jing too,actually YeeYee and i both don't like him when he sings An Jing,ask me why?For me,i will say 'cos he don't sound like Sylvester Sim when he sings An Jing.I like his voice when he sings those english songs.But whatever it is,people like him when he sings chinese songs so let it be,i think he will be big in the chinese market anyway.
The next song was I Dream,both Taufik and Sly sang this,and we've got two different versions.Well,maybe because i'm a supporter of Sly,i like Sly's version actually.Initially thought it wouldn't be good for the two of them to sing the same song 'cos people will compare,but after he sang,i think he did great.Taufik sang a Taufik version,while our Sylvester sang a Sylvester version.I don't know why,but i feel proud of Sly too,when he sings I Dream,i just like..."Sylvester,i'm so proud to be a fan of yours." So what if he don't win,i think he has already proved his talent.
Anyway,yesterday Taufik sang Superstitions and i thought it showed that he has got a strong vocal.When he sang Me and Mrs. Jones,you will go..."Awww...this guy is sweet!" And when he sang I Dream,you will fall in love with his voice and for some,fall in love with him.
Yesterday night,the atmosphere was great.It's great to be at the Indoor though we sit very far.We can see the crazy Taufik and Sly fans.And we watched one other special performance by the 9 idol finalists which is not shown on TV.That was 10minutes before the result show started rite?And...we also felt much more excited than we are in front of the TV.Also,i bought 8Days and got a free Sly/Taufik fan...and bought LIME and got a free Sly card...That card is so damn nice!!!Argh...Sly's so good-looking in the picture!
Well,I'm gonna miss the show.Who won't?It has been a routine to switch to channel 5 every thursday at 8pm,but now,even if i switch,can't watch Singapore Idol anymore.Man,I'm gonna miss it.Actually,Singapore Idol is really a great show,it's not just about the fun and excitement of watching the contest,that show is able to bring people closer together.My family and I talk about it,and i watch it with my parents and see how each of us define what kind of singer is a gd singer.It has become a subject for me and my brother to talk about,a big topic for me and my friends,and the central topic for me and Yeeyee,also for me and my aunt.I'm gonna feel this emptiness in my life now that Singapore Idol is no longer showing anymore.Man,like what Sly says,i wish this journey will nv end.
Hey,i wanna say one more thing,it doesn't matter who wins this contest.Taufik is the Singapore Idol,but Sly is our idol too,and he's my Singapore Idol in my heart.Why can't there be two Singapore Idols right?But anyway,he's still gonna have a music career,AND HE WILL BE BIG!
Sylvester Sim WILL BE BACK!Don't be surprised if one day you hear a singer by the name of Shen Xiang Long!=D Sly will be back!ROCK ON,SLY!We'll miss you and wait for you!

back from camp!

2004-11-29T21:05:00.000+08:00

Heyyo!I'm back from the camp already!=) got miss me?
Well,talking 'bout the camp,i think this camp is alright actually.Not too good nor too bad.One very good thing is that there are only 5 Sec3 girls and only the 5 of us sleep in the ITRex...we've got the whole ITRex room to ourselves so we sleep quite comfortably actually.The guys slept in the Language Lab and the I-studio.Hey,they enjoyed too ok?They can use the computer throughout the night!
Alright,I'll talk about some things in the camp.The first day was quite ok,just some ice-breaking and stuffs like that.The 7 teams think about their team names and their cheers,the best team name to me is the Underwear,'cos when they report strength,they call themselves Briefs and G-strings...more creative than the rest.Then i will always remember this guy called Herzad,he can really shout very loud,like to hear him report strength.
Then the first day we played war game.That's the most fun game to all the people,they threw water bombs at one another.Actually i would have found it fun if i could play with water.'Cos of some girls' stuff,i cant really play with water so it's quite a pity.But hey,Peishan and me are not suppose to get wet,but we are very wet at the end of the game too.All thanks to YongSheng and Alumnis...hahax.But anyway nothing happened after i got wet,so it's fine.I'm glad that the others enjoy themselves anyway.Bathing was fun too,'cos we wash our hair outside,then like so funny like that,we practice teamwork during bathing somemore,helping one another to take clothes and wash hair and stuffs like that.
Second day,we got dry games and wet games.After the first dry game,WeeSin,Justin,Peishan,Evon and I stayed in the hall and Weesin and Justin played piano.We didn't go down for the other games.Justin played really well,his fingers are like SO FLEXIBLE!How i wish i can play like him also.Anyway,that's when Weesin starts to say i'm actually a Grade 7 piano student when actually i reali dono how to play it.He tell like almost everyone that i'm Grade 7 then got people believe him somemore.When i say i really dono how to play,he say i humble,don wanna show my talent.Crazy rite?Where got people dono how to play then others claim that she knows.Goodness...Hahax.
Then for the wet games,Peishan,Reina,Evon and I were in charge of the Butter Hill station.It's really disgusting,'cos the Butter Hill was really dirty,with all the eggs,flour,oil,butter,mayonaise,mud...The Butter Hill actually stinks so much that it attracted flies and can you imagine that the sec1s and sec2s hafta climb up the hill?Ewww...Haha,i seriously pity them.But they really learn to work with one another through this although the wet games make them really dirty.
Then we had our campfire,sorry guys,know it's quite boring yeah?I know one of the emcees is really useless right,and that emcee is me.Haha,'cos i really don't know anything so i'm really very lousy,so sorry guys!The campers are not enthu also and make things become really bored,i think it's only until the Alumnis take over that everything seems better.Thanks to the Alumnis.And wanna thank WeeSin too lah,know he's very tired,he's in charge of the campfire and solo walk and know he's under alot of stress,he skipped his meals also,and nobody really seems to be able to help him.He has got to do so much...
The Solo Walk was quite fun too.Initially Evon and I was so scare of the Solo Walk though we're supposed to scare people because Kendrick said he really saw dirty thing even before the solo walk begins so all of us start to worry what if we saw that kinda thing also.But until now i still abit doubt Kendrick's words,he say that thing he saw was in white polo tee and black shorts,and he initially thought it's Teck Koon,but hey,maybe that is really Teck Koon leh?'Cos Teck Koon really wore exactly the same thing.Kendrick may not be seeing thing.The fun of Solo Walk is when we see those people frightened by us.Especially when people like Shaun was also frightened by ZhiLun who's in the I-studio.
The solo walk last until 6am...wat the hell.So late rite?We had our sleep at 5something but at 7 the Alumnis wake us up for fire drill.Can die man...my eyes can't open lor!When Mr Loh was talking,it's really like every word of his go in through one ear and out the other ear.Really too tired already.Then 9am when they are clearing up,while we are discussing 'bout who to give the prizes to,i actually fell asleep,all i can remember is i say i wan Jing Wen to be the best group leader.Then during debriefing,the sec1s and sec2s don wan play nor see newspaper dance so the Alumnis are really disappointed with them like what Teck Koon says.
Actually last day i very high,especially when we're leaving.WeeSin,Rong En,Zhi Lun,TeckKoon,Peishan,Evon and I went to help Mr Loh carries some stuffs and i start to play around with Mr Loh's stuffs like crazy girl like that.All say i siao already,think i very tired,when i very tired,i'll do stupid things.Then when i hit TeckKoon with Mr Loh's stuffs,he took away those things from me and hit me then we started fencing and then stupid Weesin lock us up in the storeroom and tell us to concentrate on our fencing.Stupid rite?Then after that we kena locked by Teck Koon in the Language Lab.The third day all like crazy already like that,especially me.
Well,anyway,here i want to thank Rong En for doing so much for the camp,know he's like so tired each day in the camp.And thank WeeSin for the campfire,Weesin and Yongsheng for the solo walk,Peishan and Evon for the drinks,Alumnis for doing so much for us,Zhilun and Jasela for accompanying during the Solo Walk.And of course must thank Mr Loh for everything.Thank the campers too.And wanna say sorry to all of you for me being such a useless A.I.C,everythin also dono,everything also nv do,i'm really sorry!

sci team camp

2004-11-27T01:48:00.000+08:00

Hey people...hahax,guess where am i now?I'm at the science team camp lah actually.Hahax,this is total crap,actually just want to tell you all i at sci team camp lor,so no update,strupid rite?Hahax,whatever,anyway i'm feeling better,coming here can forget some problems yeah?I'll update on the camp when i get home.Here is ok,today not as fun but tomorrow will definitely be a better day.So see ya people,take care~=p

love hurts~

2004-11-24T21:00:00.000+08:00

Well,i didn't do much today,or should i say i did nothing?
Actually he says he's going to call today and see whether we can meet,but never,so i also never go out.Whole day at home i'm slacking,use com and watch tv and sleep.But thought of many things today.
I open the refrigerator thinking of eating Kinder Brueno,at first i thought sure eat finish already,but suddenly see another box,it's everytime like that,my Kinder Brueno like won't eat finish one...know why...my father buys them everytime he sees it's finishing 'cos he knows i love it.I dono why but i suddenly feel really touched today.I know my family now got some kind of financial problem and i feel really guilty today.My handphone bill suddenly increase by $50,and i myself know why,don't worry people,it's not 'cos of the votes,it's 'cos of the calls.There's a month which i received alot of calls and i talk very long on handphone,and that's the reason why there's a sudden increase.Somehow,i thought over it and i really hate myself,how i wish i had known about their problem earlier,how i wish i never use my handphone this way and waste their money this way.I'm really guilty.My dad treats me so well,yet i never think 'bout them,think 'bout all the hardships he is going through.He is working so hard to support this family,yet i'm using money this way.I asked whether i should go out and find a job but they said i'm too young.Well,i think now what i have to do is i really need to use money wisely,and use handphone wisely too.Sorry Dad,sorry Mum,sorry for me still behaving this way at my age,i'll be a grown-up...i love you guys...
Not only did that get into my mind.I was watching Di Ba Hao Dang Pu today and Gao Han says,"De bu dao hui bao de ai,bi xiang xiang zhong,lai de tong ku qian wan bei" which means when u love someone but you don't get love in return is a thousand time more painful than one can ever imagine.I guess i hafta agree with this.Like Nel says...love hurts~ That is so so true...love really hurts but still,love is wonderful.Well,people fall in and out of love very easily...but when you love a person,love him wholeheartedly and no matter what happens,it's all worthwhile.I'm waiting and waiting for something,but i come to realise i'm waiting for nothing.Sometimes things just don't turn out the way you want it to be.Life's like that,full of ups and downs,we just got to accept it.I'm glad that i'm turning from a weakling to a strong girl.I'm now someone who can handle my own problem.Though sometimes things are really bad for me,but I'm going to face it and I'm going to get over it.
Sorry people for having to listen to all these "craps" of mine...well...love hurts~

"Some people want it all,

But i don't want nothing at all

if it ain't you baby,

If i ain't got you baby.

Some people want diamond rings,

Some just want everything,

But everything means nothing

If i ain't got you..."

I took a hard time to understand this song initially,i think you guys know 'bout that.i even broke down while practising this 'cos i was so stressed up 'cos i couldn't get the right feel.But i've totally understood this song...now i know how the person feels when he/she is writing the song...

things will never be the same again...

2004-11-23T22:19:00.000+08:00

Woh~~
I feel so tired!!!Hahax...well,these days like no rest like that.It's just so occupied and I'm abit going crazy already.Well well,many things are also going through my mind,let me talk 'bout what happen these days first.
Yesterday,I wake up very early in the morning to watch Good Morning Singapore 'cos Taufik and Sly went on the show for interview.Damn funny.They are both damn cute and can see they are still very inexperience.Hahax,Sly is not good at Chinese too,hahax,though he's also not very good at English,but think he sound more comfortable when he speaks Chinese.
Then,I went my aunt's house condo there bowling.Bowl until my hand now still hurt,don't know why like dat.Maybe i played the wrong way?Hahax...but anyway,it was fun lahx,just that i got a broken fingernail and abit of muscleache.And,Darren really great lorx,I like to see him bowl,like so nice like that.His ball so special one,hehex.And then Adene play very nice also,'cos got attitude,=D Yeeyee one simple and nice...heex...!=)
Then after that Yeeyee,Adene,Jerry and Darren go queensway buy pants and shoes for Darren's prom night,and I stayed at their house to sing songs.Man...this is when so many things got into my mind.I thought of many things,and memories...“在临别时候通话并无纪录，以我们的过去没声息地结束，但唯睹远处那面挂钟，可以给我纪念这秒的痛。并无任何幸福事活现眼前，这事情的真据已得不到半点，无留恋也欠缺旧信件，竟看不见怎么可再相见...” Don't know whether you all can see the characters,if can't,change the Encoding.Anyway,this is from a cantonese song by Sammi Cheng called 不拖不欠...it just makes me think of many many things...yes,love hurts~
Things are not gonna be the same again,and yes,nothing can change this fact so i just hafta get over it...but will still think about it lorx,that's y these are called memories rite?
At night,I watched Final Destination 2 at their house too,it's very nice,very thrilling,i like i like,and abit sadistic too,the characters all die until very ke lian.While i was watching,my father tired until sleep lehx,hahax,my parents damn funny.But at least my mum got watch though she very tired too.
Now I'll talk about today,today i went to town with Ser Xing and Wenxiang lorx.When we went on the bus,YongHwee board the same bus too,but he funny lahx,he alighting at the next bus stop 'cos he say there can take both 187 and 963 when the previous bus stop can also take 187.Then nevermind,when we alight at Heeren,we were crossing the road to Cine...and guess wat,i met that Flesh Imp guy again!He's at the opposite side of the road...hahax,I'm like,"My god,so familiar,it's him again..." Hahax,but i don't dare let Ser Xing see him 'cos she sure say i got bad taste lahx.Hahax!
Okiex,then we went up to the cineplex there wan watch Shutter but Cathay don't have,so we decided to go Cheers buy newspaper to check the timeslots at Lido and Plaza Sing...I bought newpaper 'cos got Sly and took Today oso,then we check the timeslots and decided to go PS watch the 2.30 show.Anyway,we saw Daphne Khoo outside Cheers,at the Famous Amous there.When Ser Xing tell me,I'm like..."What Daphne?"...then i see already then i noe it's Daphne Khoo.She was queueing behind us also,but Asmond,don't jealous k?;-) She's ok lahx,think she really look better in T-shirt and jeans.But well,no take photo with her,though we see got people take photos with her.I told Serxing to call Asmond 'cos he likes Daphne mahx,then if he want talk to her,maybe we can request Daphne to speak to Asmond for a while,but when we call him,she go off already.
Anyway,we went Plaza Sing but the 2.30 and the 3.10 show both only left the two rows of seats in front,so we watched the 4.45 one...It's a damn great show!Best horror movie of the year,or well,it's the best that I've watched I think.It's really very very very scary,not suitable for the faint-hearted.Got heart attack one sure will die there,serious,the guy in front of me also say that.Hahax,then we watch half way really feel like getting out of the theatre,scared until really tired.I think the people who make this movie really very clever,like Serxing says,they really do know how to play with our mind,really!It's so different from the other horror movie,firstly this one really got plot,the plot not bad also.Secondly,when other horror movies try to make the sound effect so loud in order to scare you,this one used silence too.And also,they really do know how to build up the climax...and the part when they use darkness to keep u in suspense is really scary.The whole movie is so so scary lorx,like cannot rest like that,but got funny part also lahx.So if you like horror,watch this one,it's gonna be really really great.Don't miss it,it's a good movie,it's worth the money.Nice production...Anyway,it's in Thai...but got subtitles,so it's ok yeah?SCARY LAHX!Hahax!

Sly got in!

2004-11-21T19:59:00.000+08:00

Hahax,have not posted for two days,so come and post now.Wanna talk about what happen on friday,saturday and today!
Well,friday...it's a day of tears again!Hahax,but this time is different!Okiex,everyone knows it's the result show,atmosphere is very tense everywhere,even sitting in front of the TV.After hearing Gurmit says Taufik is safe and is going to the grand finals,well,that's an expected thing,and Sly and Olinda are left standing on the stage,waiting for the results.It's tough to guess who will get in,'cos they are both strong and weak in different areas,and they are both among the most talented contestants.And this competition is all about votes,last week Olinda was safe but not Sly,i was so scare Olinda's votes will be more than Sly's again.Then Gurmit starts asking the judges who they think Singapore will vote for into the grand finals.Ken said Taufik and Sly,Douglas said Taufik and Olinda,Dick said Taufik and Sly and Florence couldn't make the guess.She couldn't make up her mind,I think she doesn't want any of them to go,but this is a contest,one has to go.Florence cried lehx...and don't know why,i cried too,i heard from my cousin even my aunt nearly cried.The atmosphere is just like that,so tense up.Then Gurmit starts to announce,he said "Sylvester...",this is the scary part,and i couldn't control the tears.Looking at Sylvester biting his lips,head hung down,he's like all prepared for the worst.Gurmit then said "I don't lik to say this...but...",i really thought he'll say Sly is out so it was realli a terrible time..."Sylvester,you're going to the grand finals!" My god!!!I couldn't believe what i hear,all the votes we cast made a difference!Sly is going in!I just jump up and scream and scream and cry and cry...my mum says i crazy but she's not angry having such a crazy daughter.It's tears of relief.Wonder if u all understand they joy,it's so great!Then my mum said in chinese lahx,"yah wat...that guy not bad wat..." =)
Den i go online,Ilya tell me many people think Sly don't deserve to be in Final2,then i took some time to explain to Ilya why Olinda should go and Sly should stay,that's it's not injustice at all!And guess what,Ilya replied,"yeah...i support you!Sly rocks!" Hey man,Sly deserve it,i got no energy to explain it again and again but i want to say,if u all still think he don't deserve it,go ahead,maybe you have your own reasons,but we can have many many reasons to counter whatever you say,'cos Sly really deserve this.Oh yahx,I wanna thank all those who have voted for Sly.You guys are great,are cool,and simply rock!=D
Well,Saturday,which is yesterday,me and my cousin,YeeYee lahx...hahax,went to Tampines and Bedok.Know u all sure say,"Wah lao!Siao,so far!"...but hey,just one hour from CCK to Tampines lor,you think Singapore how big...hahax.Okiex,we went to see the Idols,but we reach there like 2 something wan 3 lik dat when the thing actualli starts at 5.45pm.So we went to find a place to sit down 'cos we wanted to read the Newpaper,got Sly.Yah,den we have a drink lahx,den we eat Otah...very tasty lehx!Nice nice!Yah,then we go Tampines Mall walk walk lorx,and i bought S&K shirt.Then we go Cheers wan buy food before we go see Idols,but we go in walk so long never buy anything den go out,like mad girls like dat.hahahax!Dat's what happen when you go out with me.Mad things tend to happen.=p Den we go back to where the Idols will be at,and casts of Living with Lydia are there,talking 'bout their show and stuffs.Very squeezy then got alot of auntie,uncle go there just to join the crowd.Then Idols came on stage at exactly 5.45pm,the atmosphere is like,woah,totally crazy.The Sly fans are really scary,scream very loud lehx!Eardrum can break!Then my cousin and I stand there sweat like siao.Well,from my view,can see Sly very clearly,then there's this point of time Sly scream to the audience,he scream like how he scream when he was singing I don't wanna miss a thing,then I'm like thinking,"Sly is really cool.It's very difficult to find a guy who can scream until so got style one lorx!"...hahahax.And when the host ask what will they be singing for the final showdown.Sly says it's not going to be a battle or wat,'cos they are already like brothers,there's just gonna be a rocker,and a R&B guy.Wah...really looking forward to it!Then Sly and Taufik really VERY VERY CUTE!I mean...VERY!!!!Hahahax.And they are really like idols already.
Then after that,we went to eat Long John...then we think of go Bedok see see,'cos start at 7.30pm.We go there,we stand very far away from the stage then can see clearer,but Sly and Taufik's voice very soft,especially Sly 'cos his fans scream very loud also.Got one time Sly imitate Phua Chu Kang's father...then very cute lor...hahahax..."Ah Chu ar Ah Chu ar...!"WOAH!HE'S JUST TOO CUTE!Then got autograph session,but I never go.We just stand there to see lorx.Then we go down the bus stop there,then 'cos the Idols walk from there to the van so we get to see also lorx.They are like running to the van and the fans also run and run...hahax,totally crazy!Then my cousin and I stand at a platform somewhere then look down from there,see the Idols in the van...Sly is like giving the *muacks* pose when one of his fans is trying to take his photo...he really do know how to flirt in front of the camera,well,that's what idols should do!
Sunday!!!which is today!!!I wake up at 8.30am...'cos i thinking of asking people go Bishan with me take Idols' autograph,but i suddenly sian,then go back sleep until 9.45 like dat den i ask around see if got people want go Bishan.Just when i wanted to give up,Baozhu sms me say she wan go oso!So i meet her at Bishan at 1.30...i thought maybe we don't have a chance to get autograph already,but when we reach there,Daniel Ong says the Idols will stay for 2 hours...!They came and the crowd scream and scream.Wah,today one worse than yesterday.The fans totally lose control,lucky i'm not like that,hey,i never scream one lehx...hahax...okiex,abit lahx...when Sly dance lorx.=p but i very cool and steady hor!Well,then,Sly went to rest and Taufik need to choose like 3 ppl to go up take photo with him.Very good ritex,then Daniel Ong's the photographer...=p Daniel Ong very cute...like crazy guy like that...=p Then Taufik choose 5 people and they gave them the Final Showdown tickets.Hell,good ritex!Then Sly's turn,Taufik go rest,then he did the same thing as what Taufik did also.Just that he got dance!Hahax!Can't believe it,Sly dance lehx!Not bad lehx...realli!Hahax.Then autograph starts lorx...me and Baozhu manage to go up.Funny lehx.We were talking,then Baozhu keep saying Asmond is my BF...i said no...den she tell me don bluff.WAT THE HELL LAHX!hahahax...'cos that day she see me at town with Asmond,Xiang and Jocelyn...then she say Asmond like my BF...realli no lorx!!!Then finally she decided to believe me.I mean it's the truth wat,Asmond is only my friend what ritex.Goodness.hahax.Then we near the stage already,there's one very big fan,i mean real electric fan...the wind blow until my hair very messy den i very pek cek...then i stand there wait...and my leg put at the barricade there then nearly push it away,it's accidentally one,but the security was shock at first,he thought what i wan to do...then i very paiseh,i was like "sorry sorry...haha"...then they just smile.Got one security very shuai leh...=X
Yep...then go in already,getting ready to go up take autograph,wah,got another big fan again then one very strong wind blow,all my hair go "BOMB",damn messy,then the security was like "woh!hahax...",then i so paiseh,Baozhu very funny,she thought i know the security but actually the security's laughing at my sudden messy hair.hahahax!
Then go up,damn funny lorx,tink i too long nv go this kind of event already,i very blur,lik suddenly dono wat to do.Taufik and Sly was standing up,then after Taufik sign mine,he look up...den i look at him...den i blur blur dono wat to do...den i look at him he look at me...den suddenly laugh lorx,i like stupid like that.Then i dono y i just say "hello",then he laugh and say "hello",he mux be thinking i stupid lahx,very paiseh.Then i just say "Go Taufik!HAHAX!",then he "thank u..." Then Sly horx...too busy signing,never even look up,bad lehx!he lik jus sign and sign only,so disappointed.Then like suddenly like Taufik more like dat...hahahax,only at that moment lahx,no worries.Taufik very cute lahx,like kena dian by him.Hahax!but i will still support Sly...no worries...=)
Then me and Baozhu go search their van,cannot find then we go KFC eat.Baozhu ate one smelly chicken wing!hahax!Then we go walk walk,go try many perfume,i try until my nose wan corrode.I nearly sneeze,den i keep forcing back,I li hai hor...hahax.Then we go back,'cos Baozhu also need to study for exam.And after that I go Lot1 alone to collect Eminem's Encore notebook!Very very nice!Eminem look very good on that notebook!=p Then i went to buy a bag myself.$16.90....I go home my mum was like..."Wah!Why buy such big bag again!"...Then we realise i am more suitable for big bag one actually,looks nicer on me.And i saw Esther when i was walking to take the LRT back home...hehex.
Yep...that's what happen these three days.Fanatic days...FANATIC!hahax...oh yahx,and one more thing i wanna say,Taufik's smile can really make one melt...woah~
Looking forward to the Rocker V.S. the R&B guy!WOAH!GO SLY!GO TAUFIK!

vote for sylvester...

2004-11-19T15:00:00.000+08:00

Well,i was really really very sad yesterday.Very very sad.You people can say i'm crazy,say whatever you want about me,'cos i know it'll sound silly to you if i say i feel sad for Sly.
Everyone knows yesterday was Singapore Idol Final3...Sly's performance wasn't very good.He don't really seem like who he is yesterday,it's not his original style.His first song was the one from the Phantom of the Opera,it was not as awful as what Florence said,but i would say he really don't sound like him,and he's not suitable for the song.But the 2nd song,Boyzone's Picture of You,i think it's simply great!He is one who seldom bounce and jump around,but he tried his best yesterday and i think it's a very fun performance.The third song was Seal's Kiss from a Rose which i think it's a song suitable for him to sing.I could feel it when he sing the song.The feeling is there,but maybe he couldn't really reach the high pitch,we all know he can do it,it's just that i think,he had really fallen ill.He has been like coughing for the past two weeks if u all remember.
Say i'm crazy,but yesterday night after he sang the first song and when i hear the judges' comments,i really cried.It's so scary...the judges' comments are really bad.Though he may not have done well for that song,but he had put in effort,he read the script to get into the song and like he said,he sing that song 'cos he like that song,i think that's good enough already.And the 2nd song,i felt really happy and relieved,but tears just fill my eyes again when he says he wore the same shirt again so that people will remember him.Sly,we will remember you no matter what happens.When he wore that shirt,it really reminds me of the time when he sings When I Look into Your Eyes and he really touched us with it.for the 3rd song,all along i've loved that song and i will love it even more after Sly sang it.i hate it when Ken tells Sly to hope that the ah lians and ah bengs will vote for him.i'm not ah lian but i swear i'll vote for Sly.
I think all Sly's fans out there are dead worried about him,just like me.Few hours later will be the result show already.I have no mood to do other things until the results are released.i kept voting and voting 'cos i know he can do well if he gets into Final2.Even if he's not the Sg Idol,he'll definitely give a gd performance at the Indoor Stadium,it's just whether Singapore want to give him a chance or not.
I was very angry with the public last night,i blame them,i hate them.I'm angry with all the people out there who keep saying that Sly is not versatile enough,say he's always doing the same type of song.I was thinking,if not for them,Sly may have chosen songs that are more suitable for him.He seems to be trying to show us that he can do not only that few types of genres.But after i think a while,maybe he wants to try out all types of songs on stage before he leaves....maybe he's prepared for the worst.But right here,i want to tell all people out there,stop saying Sly is not versatile enough,he is special,he has his own style.One good thing is after last night,we know what we like about Sylvester.We like the style of him,we like his original image...SLY IS SPECIAL!
Even if he's prepared,we don't want the worst to happen.His previous performances are nice,are great.We have to admit that he is one who's talented and he's capable of doing better.We want to see him at Final2.I sms alot of people last night to have them to vote for him,i wonder if they had voted.I hope my effort,all Sly's fans effort in getting more people to vote,and all of Sly's effort put into this competition,is not going to be wasted.The first two songs he chose wasn't very suitable for him last night,but i believe at the finals,he can rock us through the night.Give him a chance to rock you people out there at the Indoor Stadium...i know he can do it.He can do better...we know he is capable of doing much much better at the grand finals.It's just a matter of whether the people out there want to give him a chance or not.Sly is a talented guy,and I think if he is given a chance to perform at the Indoor Stadium on 1 Dec 2004,he can put up a great performance and will definitely not disappoint us.So vote for him and give him a chance to be in the Final2.Simply SMS 3 to 43657 or call 1900-112-1903 and we'll be able to see Sly do a good job on 1 Dec 2004.Your one vote can make a difference.
Man...i'm still worried...people,keep voting and voting for Sly!
Rock On Sly~!No matter what happens,you're our idol always.
I pray that Sly will make it into the Final2...Sly,you can do it!

lightings at town

2004-11-19T14:10:00.000+08:00

Alright,this picture here...top:Me and Asmond,bottom:Wenxiang and Jocelyn.
Well,this neoprint is taken by us on Wednesday,hehex,i've not update my blog for lik two days.Anyway,the four of us went to town that day and had really great fun!Actually,i'm very angry with myself for this neoprint 'cos if i didn't put the christmas hat on Asmond's head,i think this picture will be perfect.
Okiex,let me talk about what we did on Wednesday.Hehex,we meet at like 3.30pm,but of course like what always happen,me,Wenxiang and Jocelyn are late.But i have my reason,it was raining too heavily i really couldn't walk to the bus-stop.
Then at town already,we walk walk lorx,then want shop,we were at first trying to look for the S&K jacket that Asmond wants to buy,went Wisma there,Lucky Plaza there,but both also don't have.Instead,i tried on a $18 shirt at S&K,but they say the colour's too dull for me,so i never buy already.Here's the nice part,we went to Heeren...then i go into Flesh Imp shop to look for shirt lor,'cos when i buy the Eminem's Encore album,there's this CD insert,which allow me to redeem Flesh Imp X Eminem Collectors Limited Edition Crossover Tee if i spend $50 in a single receipt at the shop.But i'm only satisfied with one shirt there,it's a unique shirt,and i think it's nice,but it's like $26.90,then i don't know whether i should spend the money to buy or not,so in the end decided to go upstairs to look look then go back and buy,but i forget to go back and buy.It's like quite a pity lorx.But why i say it's a nice part,'cos met a guy who's helping out at the shop,i thin he's cool lorx,but also don't know why,he's not good-looking anyway,think i am dian by him.hahax...then after that we go take this neoprint lor,then go cine to take another neoprint,i think the other one is not very nice.yah,then we go eat.The whole day Asmond is like so pek cek with us,'cos we girls are very indecisive and he's getting impatient with us.He damn bad,even think of not going out with us anymore...='(
Then at night,we went out to see the Christmas decos,the lightings,very nice lehx...especially at Tang Plaza there.And there's a very big christmas tree opposite Borders if i'm not wrong.Then took some pictures also,but don't know why the photos taken all not very nice lehx,maybe i'm not use to using my brother's camera?At night,we really went crazy,we ran around the streets,like crazy fools like that.Then there's this point of time when we keep shouting and shouting,talking so so loudly!hahax!We keep calling Asmond shuai ge,then he so happy wor!=D Also got once i'm asked to donate money,then all the other 3 ran away.Man,now you can see how realistic my friends are.=) Hee,but it's fun going out that day,we were all really tired out.
But the thing that i'm not so happy with is that i never buy any clothes!hahax,money only used on christmas cards,neoprint,food and charity.But it's ok,we had fun!At least Joce,Xiang and me had,dono Asmond had fun anot.hehex,but well,you guys simply rock!=D

2004-11-19T13:56:00.000+08:00

This is the big big christmas tree opposite Borders,not a very nice shot rite?haix...it looks much nicer than this of course...

books borrowed

2004-11-16T21:21:00.000+08:00

wow!don shock don shock...yes,i really borrowed a book.In fact i borrowed two books today!1CD and two books.Not bad lahx.Hahax,anyway,dis is one of the books dat i borrowed.Seems very interesting,it's about murder case,detective stuffs again.I'm not sadistic but i love stories lik dat.Though i lik to say it's a waste of time to read book,dat it'll be better to watch movie,i'm just gonna give dis one a try.Very thick lehx this book,but just gonna try reading it.Review on it after i read...=) And due to curiosity on why men don't commit to relationship,i borrowed a book,"Why Men Won't Commit:How to get what you(both) want without playing games" by George Weinberg.Though not so interested in that one,but just see whether got time to read bahx...heeheex.

Eminem Encore

2004-11-16T21:15:00.000+08:00

yepx yepx...went lot 1 today and dis is wat i bought...haven listen yet 'cos just bought it mahx,but will listen later,if not it's gonna be tomolo.But realli look forward to it,hehex.Man,tink it's gonna be nice...'cos it's Eminem!it's Eminem people!Don't "Just Lose It",we want "Encore"!Review on it after i listened...=)

~family day~

2004-11-15T23:22:00.000+08:00

woah!hahax...today's a family day.actualli wanted to go out with Dot and Matt they all,but my sis came back home so decided to spend time with my family.my sis don't always come back home,so want to spend more time with her,summore can play wif niece.nice nice...!hehex.but quite a pity never go play laser quest,but Matt say very few people go,so don think i miss out too much lah,heex.today stayed at home watched MTV video music awards 2004 on channel5,tink is repeat one ritex.hahax,but anyway,USHER ROX!=)
hmmm...my mood's not too bad today though.i'm feeling better each day.=D sum things in life have changed,but i will be used to it soon.i'm a stronger girl now!hey,i am!at least i tink now i'm able to handle things myself.man...wat's the most troublesome thing in this world...it's gonna be love...love hurts~ hehex,alright,enough of all these craps...
hehex,i'm making plans for tomolo and wednesday already.wonder whether we should go town tomolo or wed.all 'cos of Ren Wo Ao You...tink will have friends wan to catch the last episode,so tink tomolo cannot already lahx.hahax,but i nv watch though.=p
woh,i suddenly got the urge to go watch Incredibles.heard dat it's gonna be a nice movie.actually i dont lik cartoons,but since Dot says it's nice,i'm gonna trust her.and the next movie that i'm gonna watch will be The Forgotten...the trailer seems cool actually~hahax,and i realise one thing,Matt dont like scary and horror,so he's scared huhx...hahax...okok,he's not scare lahx,he jux dont lik,k,i've clarified for u...=)
finally dat's all~ =D

new here...

2004-11-15T17:08:00.000+08:00

just created this blog...hahax,now just trying around,see what i can do to my blog.wahx....actually very lost now lorx.today has been such a boring day,i'm lik at home for one whole day,can't believe it.wake up,online,watch tv,online,watch tv,online...hey man,aren't my life interesting?den i sleep quite alot today also,no choice,slept quite late yesterday.i was making Sly's wallpaper.i'm getting really crazy over him.finally i admit i'm obsessed with him.hahax,jux got the sudden urge to want his wallpaper,den i surf around to search den cannot find so decided to make one myself.masterpiece you know...hahax!
but really hope to see him next week,bet they'll have publicity.yesterday went Plaza Singapura but didn't get to see him,it's quite a disappointment actually...haix...anyway,please please vote for Sylvester Sim next week okiex?he is so unsafe each week and it is really scary.must really vote alot to keep him in.he deserves to be in Final2... =)

Love, or Pride?

Move on

The New Place

*無賴~

*last day of work~

*Chinese New Year~

*Christmas day~

*happy birthdays!!!~

*bad week~

*happiest day~

*me and myself~

*troubled enough~

*sigh of the day~

*always always always...AHHH...!*

*away~

*cold~

*friends?~

*dream guy~

*it's over~

*pissed~

*graduation day~

*numbed~

*off and off i go~

*evil~

*weakness~

*hope~

*rainbow~

*where do i belong~

*festival of praise~

*happiness~

*every beat of my heart~

*here i am~

*happy birthday~

*sigh~

*sprained ankle~

*memories~

*BPian Idol 2005~

*All for Love~

*love~

*poor mummy~

*career talk~

*new blogskin~

*wow!!!i'm blogging!!!~

*wonderful wonderful~

Cry Holy

*planetshakers~

*cameron highlands~

*happy happy happy~

*chinese new year~

*silly me~

*wad can i say~

*asmond's bday~

*i dream~

*moody~

*comic boyz~

*triumph in the skies~

*school starts~

*happy new year~

*smelly paint~

*steamboat~

*x'mas...!

*hahaha`

*VFC~

*edge~

*neoprint~

*town~

*prayer meeting~

*saved~

`The Edge~

sick and tired...

~nv go out...hehe~

new blogskin...

Singapore idol~Taufik,but Sylvester Sim is gonna be my idol always.

back from camp!

sci team camp

love hurts~

things will never be the same again...

Sly got in!

vote for sylvester...

lightings at town

always always always...AHHH...!